Deadinside44

Hey. I miss you sometimes still. Not as my lover or my partner, but as my best friend. I hope you're well. I hope you're happy.

I don't really miss you. I just miss having a best friend to tell everything to, like this. That is why I should never have lost myself in you. But every day, I become more and more of a whole person again. I'm almost there. You would be proud of me I think.

Thank you. I get it now. I think you just had the guts to finally do what we both were scared to do for awhile. I ain't mad. You gave me a gift. I'm grateful. Thank you.

I'm beginning to realize that maybe you were right in doing this. I realize now that there were A LOT of things I was unhappy about with in our relationship. There were a lot of things I wasn't getting from you in the past couple of years or even more! I know better communication by both us might have helped, and we tried...but it was too little to late. I just wanted to thank you for opening my eyes. I know I'm headed to a better place each and every day.

Guess what. I'm getting over you.

I miss you. Everything hurts so much more today because I keep thinking of how we spent the last 11 Holidays together. I miss us so much. It pains me to think that you don't even miss me half as much as I miss you. That you have just stopped caring about me. You were the only person that really cared for me. Did you know that? You had to have known that. Do you know how alone and empty you've left me? I feel like a shell of my former self. I cry still almost everyday. Do you? Do you think about me at all? Since you broke my heart, I have felt invisible. And it's the worst feeling.

I miss you still. I don't think I'll ever get used to this new life. Do you miss me at all?

F***. I still miss you. I hate you for doing this. No matter how much I try to keep busy and put you out of my mind, you still haunt me. I f***ing hate you for doing this. I miss you so d@mn much. F***!!!!

You have not broken me. I'm doing things on my own that I never thought I was capable of and I'm getting stronger every day. I'll never be that girl again.

Stop thinking of radical measures. CHIPS

Voices often indicate little anguish. BULLY

Don't ask if someone's yelling. LUNCH

I miss you. How come it seems so easy for you to move forward in life? I have to get out of this house bc there are so many painful memories, yet you plan to stay here. I don't get it. Part of me wants to be angry with you to help me get over you. But how can I be angry at you? I love you. And I know I am not blameless in this. I'm already growing and continuing to learn and change so much about myself as you already knew before you left. I hope one day these changes bring you back to me. In the past, I always had an "eff u" attitude towards exes, but I can't do that with you. You are different. We are different. And so I can only hope and dream that this will end up differently than what has happened with my exes in the past. I don't care if I sound weak and vulnerable right now. Not opening up and being vulnerable to you and us is partly why we are here. And I'm sorry for that. I love you.

I miss you.

I miss you. Do you miss me? It's weird to suddenly be without the person who was your whole life for so long. I love you and am still in love with you despite all the pain you are causing...because I think back to all the good times and all we've been through together. I'm scared of losing you forever. I hoped you would feel our relationship was worth fighting for....things don't magically change overnight, so why did you give up on me, on us, so quickly?