Me and my girlfriend had a long relationship(6months) where everything was great.. Her love for me was so high, so i kind of relaxed and didnt try as hard to impress her or flatter her.. It just seemed comfortable to do, she didnt seem to mind.. Only she did which i find out i made her actually cry. How!? She loved me an incredible amount! I wish she told me
I go on vacation and half way through I ask her some questions like if shes the happiest she could be with someone, she gives me doubt. I say, i cant live knowing im not the best for you, yet youre the best for me! She may have got the wrong idea because fooling around was tied in there. She said she loved me, but it wasnt enough.. i wanted to be her best.
I broke up with her, telling her to find someone she could be happy with. She was silent mostly, like she was hinting i was perfect for her possibly. She loved me so much.. its strange
I return from vacation after we have several talks about whats up with our future.. She says she needs a break, well talk when i get back. So like i said i got back, we talked, and she still wants a break. As she leaves we start crying, I had to tell her how much i loved her because it seeemed like we would be together soon. She said she loved me still, and she realized how much she missed me,
We resume our friendship, but we're more than just friends.. loving friends as we put it. We hung out one night.. we had a great time, we were laughing, talking, all the good stuff. Time comes to walk her out to the car and i said.. so whats the deal with contact? she says i dont know.. and puts her keys down on the car like she wanted me to start kissing her.. i did, and she seemed to really like it. as she left i tried to go in the car with her and said im coming, except i was sitting on her lap. she let out a very flirty laugh, leaving me happy. So the next day we still talk, but her respect for me is so low, and i can bear it. i ask her why and she just ignores me. i kept trying to ask her and she only got mad at ME. i dont understand, i thought she didnt love me. i asked her repeatedly and she said she did, even in the toughest situations.
Finally one night she says she doesnt anymore, after ditching me throughout the day. I was very frustrated with her major lack of respect for someone she "loved". She said she didnt mean the love she had lately... this left me feeling horrible. The WORST kind of betrayal in my book.. WHY!? i definitely felt love in the air that one night that she so easily DENIED. not right. Her love for me was so high i dont see how it could vanish like that.
I really want to get back with her! She loved me so much! I think my comfort during the relationship when i felt at ease to not give all my efforot to showing my love was demonstrated by AFTEr i broke up with her.. THEN i became her, trying to get an oz of respect. She was much worse with showing respect towards me , which was very disheartening.
As of now we could possible be hangingout sometime soon.. im trying to keep contact to a minimum also. I had to call her recently because i felt she was lieing when she didnt have anymore feelings for me than any one of her other friends. I had to hear her say she didnt love me, and didnt feel any love that night she came over. I am almost sure there was love that night, so is she lieing to me again about her love for me now?
This is all so confusing.. i want her back so bad and it seems so possible osmetimes. i read a journal of hers and in it there was so much about all the fun we had.. how much she loved me, and how she was PERFECTLY HAPPY. wow. and i thought she had such a strong love for me the entire time, only to be kicked in the teeth with an I DONT LOVE YOU!? it doesnt fit the picture at all... please!! what is this girl thinking!?? any psychological analysis would be great