hi,
I've known this girl practically my whole life. I met her when I moved to a new house when I was 6 years old. when I first met her, I thought she was the prettiest girl that I'd ever seen, but of course I was only 6 years old. but, now I'm 16 years old and I still think that she is the most beautiful girl that I've ever seen. she lived behind my house on the col'de'sac behind my house, in the same neighborhood though. and she has a brother, and he, my brother, and I always used to hang out together. she would hang out with us sometimes too, and I loved it when she did. she's so fun, funny, and really nice to everybody. her brother and I are REALLY good friends, but I always went over to his house to see her most of the time. I'm so happy when I'm hanging out with her. NO ONE knows that I like her, but they can probably tell because whenever I'm around her, I get really happy, lol. I've really never had a girlfriend because whenever I see a girl I always compare them to her, and she is always better. she's never had a boyfriend either, and I guarentee thats not because of what she looks like because she is gorgeous. she was the girl that I had my first kiss with too. we were playin spin the bottle, lol, and she got me, so she kissed me. I LOVED that. she smiled after she kissed me, and that was probably the best night of my life. I'm getting a weird feeling just thinking about it. my family is really close to hers. my dad, mom, brother and I always used to go over to their house, which that was her dads house because her mom and dad are divorced. I'm really close to her dad too. he's a cool guy and he really likes me too. but I moved away to New Jersey from North Carolina about a year and a half ago because of my dads job. that was definitely the worst day of my life, not just because of her, but I had REALLY good friends down there and it was a really bad choice by my dad (he had the choice to do it, but it paid more than double his old job, and I think he sort of regrets it too). but we try to stay close to her and her family. before I moved, I was thinking about telling her that I liked her, and I think she likes me too but I'm really not sure. I've thought about her everyday since I've moved and I get mad everytime I do because I can't be with her like I used to. I used to could just go over to her house, but not anymore. and I REALLY just want to see her. we've kept in touch over the last year and a half, on the internet mostly and I've seen her and her brother and dad last christmas and last summer. and it's summer again and this sunday my brother and I are goin back to North Carolina to visit my family and friends. we're gonna stay at my grandparents house when we first get there, but then we're goin to her house to stay for about a week. we'll be there until july 8. I might tell her, but I really don't know if I should. if I do, then it'll be really hard on her and me if she does like me because I'll have to go back to New Jersey anyway. I really just want to be with her, and the best days of my life were all spent with her. we're really good friends, so I don't want to ruin that. I might ruin our friendship if I tell her because we can't be together. I've always been known as a funny guy and a nice guy, but behind all that I'm really shy. I really can't express my feelings easily. I'll be a junior in high school next year and she will too, but I wanna wait for her. I'll probably go to North Carolina for college, and she'll probably stay in NC for college. so I could actually have a chance to be with her when I go to college. so I need advice, what should I do?
*sorry for long post w/no paragraphs*
