Have no idea what to write about. I am still lost in my days since BU. No contact for 25 days now. I am very unstable during my days. One minute I feel good, other one i feel like crap. I feel like I am bipolar due to all the mess happening right now with me. I cannot stop thinking about him. I try to focus on BAD things happen between us, but, ironically, there are so many things happened while we were together. Those memories hurt so much. I feel desperation. I am very good on giving advises to others how to start new way of living, but NONE of them helped me personally so far. I know we won't be together. We didn't have actual Closure over everything, just stopped talking to each other after another fight. I do not want to be with him, but still think about us a lot. I know it is going to be better tomorrow than today,and it is better today than yesterday. I have to move on.