infinity8246

MVP For one, I know my girlfriend likes the music I write. In this case, I write it and don't care what people think. This is going to be a sad song about pain, because, that's how I felt when it was written. I'm working on guitar chords and a piano part now for it too.

Instead of straight poetry, I write song lyrics, and later muisc (I'm in a band for those of you who don't know. I've got a link as my homepage.) So anyways, here's a recent rough draft of one I wrote about my current situation with my girlfriend. I wish I could give you an answer But I don't have one for myself I wish I could wipe away your tears And take you away from your hell But things like this are never easy And there's no way they will ever be I don't understand what I need to do My feelings and emotions escape me I'm just searching for a miracle For a hand to reach out and save me, now You know I'd never mean to hurt you I care about you far too much I know that I can't reassure you With me pushing away as such But things like this are never easy And there's no way they will ever be I don't understand what I need to do My feelings and emotions escape me I'm just searching for a miracle For a hand to reach out and save me I don't want to push away from you But there's nothing I can do I don't know why I push away from us I don't want to betray the trust We had I wish I could give you an answer But I don't have one for myself I wish I could wipe away your tears And take you away from your hell

I hear ya. I wouldn't want to try that with my ex. At least not right now. What I do know is that if my ex said that she would want to date me again, I would break up with my girlfriend now in a second. Not to say I don't love her, but my ex...she's the greatest girl...hell, greatest person I've ever know. But that would probably never happen, at least at this point in time. We both have intentions of staying in touch when she goes to college for a while, and who knows, maybe we'll get back together. I'm not getting my hopes up. She'll probably have found someone in college by then, and chances are I'll have done the same. I just want to be happy with a girl I love so much. But this is beside the point. I really think I'll probably end up breaking up with my girlfriend, it's really just a question of when. Doing it now would probably not be the best option considering things might change, and right when she gets back after our one year...that would be ten times worse. I don't know what I'm going to do yet. Still thinking.

Thanks for all the advice going here so far. The more I think about it, the more I really just don't want anyone to be hurt. I know she'll be hurt a lot, and I don't even want to do that to her. She's too great of a girl, but sometimes, it's inevitable. And even myself, I know that I'd have slight problems getting used to the fact that I'm not dating her anymore...but I think it may be for the best. I really think I'm going to wait until after though just to give me more thinking time and let my mind clear up.

First off, I'm new to these forums and would just like to say HI! to start out. Anyways, so I've been dating my current girlfriend for almost a year now, but I think the end's coming on. I'm not doing too bad, because the end would be due to me...but then again, at the same time, I want us to stay together. Lately, I've just felt like there's nothing really there anymore. I know she's so in love with me...making this even harder for me to make a decision. Maybe it's just the end of the school year and all of this stress that's coming down upon me. A lot of my friends are leaving for college and I'm stuck back here another year, and that's quite emotionally draining on me. It's like everything has pretty much made me devoid of strength to care anymore. The only things I seem to care about anymore are my music and my friends. Not really her anymore. But, school's almost out, and she's leaving for two weeks, which will give us a break. I'm wondering whether or not I should wait until after the break to make a decision. What's even harder though, is that the day she gets back is our one year, and she's expecting to celebrate. But with things like they are, I just don't know anymore. Interesting side note on this too. One of my ex-girlfriend's and I, well, we've been good friends even the day after we broke up and stayed that way. Lately though, I've grown really close to her, and we really are best friends. I was over her, but I'm starting to be highly attracted to her again. She's leaving for college in another state, so that's out, but still, anyone think it might be contributing to my lack of caring? It's like with my ex I actually really want her back, and if not that, I just want her friendship with me to never end, EVER, for any reason...I don't know anymore...So confused.