Day 8
Yesterday was tough as I was supposed to get a text/call about meeting up this weekend so obviously not! We used to do everything at the weekend and I long for those times again. I'm one of the only men in the world who used to like going shopping with her!!!! I used to love the way she dressed.
To be honest, I am ok (a little hurt I guess) but after 6 weeks (today!) of the break up and reading so many posts on here, NC is designed for the dumpee and not the ex.
I have forced myself to get out of my comfort zone and so I've joined a meetup group that are meeting this evening at a pub. It will be good to meet new people. I need to make myself proactive to heal quicker and to stop obsessing as that's all I ever do.
The thought of someone touching her is still killing me inside.
I will not contact though. The power she has is too great at the moment and I know she sees me as weak.
