Silent Man

Nice ones, Silent Man. I like the way you've arranged them in themes. Hope the order is true and you're at the last one.

Yes it is

rejection

everyday the same

everyday the pain

picking away at my soul

never good enough

never tough enough

to compete with anyone

and you

you dictate my life everystep of the way

i cant think for myself

are you proud of yourself?

isolation

living in a dream

somewhere inbetween

real life and fantasy

cant tell whats real

this pain that i feel

emptiness inside of me

and you

you believed all the lies and you kept them inside

and you followed the rest

loss of self respect

addiction

take away my pain

make me feel sane

open my mind

take a little trip

it wont hurt a bit

and let me take control

and you

with you I had finally found

a way to escape from my life

but i paid the price

despiration

tired of being alone

desperate for a soul

who could give me the strength i need

i was down on myself

and i needed some help

someone who'd believe

and you

your tyin me down and holdin me back

i succumb to your ways of life

and i still dont suffice

inspiration

i finally let go

this pain that i've known

i'm ready to move on

gambling on fate

the feeling was great

my time had finally come

then you

you gave me your heart and your soul

and made me glad to be me

i've escaped from misery

Hey amaranth_04 how are you? That's great this one doesn't fit country-pop, I was worried that I might have had to switch to country music lol.

Thanks everyone for the compliments. ang3l2004 I've seen you respond to every one of my poems and I really appreciate it, thank you.

today is the day my life will change

an unknown road lay ahead

will my life remain whole with you by my side

...or will i walk alone

something tells me i'm on my own

when will you finally realize

you cannot run for the rest of your life

you need my love and i'm right here

so please come home

love, please don't run your gettting tired

hope, i can change your life but theres a catch

commitment, you have to help me

with you my life was whole

too many years i spent alone

but i cant carry us on my own

so please come home

you deserve the world but you will never believe it

your mind is set, your familiar with the pain

afraid to be reborn

so run, you've made it this far

deny your chance for a new life

and wake up from this dream of stability

Unfortunately that would be my assumption that he didn't want you to come so he didn't invite you and he didn't want to hurt your feelings by telling you he went and didn't ask if you wanted to come. Or maybe the other people he was with had something to do with it, maybe he couldn't act the way he likes to around them with you there because you said he acts different around different people. Maybe it's time to change his status to 'Good Friend'.

Nice, silent man. It sounds like words to a song, too. Got a sort of country-pop tune for it in my head.

Cool! I write all my stuff with music in my head...not country/pop though but if that works for you great!

leaving it all behind

everything i love

just the clothes on my back

and a one way ticket

there were times i had it all

i did everything i could

but others didnt help

and here i am

is there anyone who apprecites me?

why do i give more than anyone else?

it doesnt matter now cause they took it all from me

theres an emptiness inside where my love and devotion once was

now my soul is cold and tired

and theres no one left but me

a decision must be made

theres no reason to stay

i dont know if i could ever love again

and without love

i might as well be dead

I enjoyed it. I mean...if you go to the suicide forum a lot of people say they have nothing to live for. They need to read that...

Yea that's what I thought so I posted it in the 'Suicide Forum', Got deleted for double posting

And thanks everyone for the comments. I have a few more I may post.

You sound exactly like me when I was your age. I didn't get over it until I was 20 or so and I'm still bad with peers, thats why school was so hard for me. I guess the only advice I have is to relax and remember it's 'no big deal'. 5-10 years from now no one is going to remember the times you said something embarrasing or did something stupid. But in 5-10 you will remember all of the missed opportunities and wonder why the hell you didn't just take a chance. Being young is just practice for life, we all make mistakes, learn from them. Sorry I couldn't help more I truly feel your pain.

Silent Man

No your probably right but he won't come out and tell you unless he wants to.

I think it was great, you should definitely write some more. image removed

Great man I really like those.

Maybe a sign... only you will know what it really means though. Could mean he's lazy, not that kind of person, whatever. It's hard to say without knowing what kind of relationship you currently have.

Don't worry about how she feels about you and I DO NOT advise coming right out and asking her. Just have fun, try to get a sense of how she's feeling. Don't think of it as friends OR a date, keep a completely open mind and see what happens.

As far as choosing the place just pick a place where you know she will find something to eat that she likes...simple. And nothing too expensive. My advice on paying would be to bring enough to pay for it all. If she says it's her treat then its something she wants to do...let her (maybe some playful argument of who will pay). If she doesn't and it feels right, offer to pay for the whole thing (you can say 'next one's on you'). If you can't decide then each pay for your own.

Good Luck!

Silent Man

Awesome!

Well I'm not sure that I'm 'hurting' my friends its more like they may think WTF? But then I again I don't think I do it to the extent that your friend seems to. But you may be right about him being depressed and not saying anything. Could be because he's not sure why he's depressed or just may not be the type of person to tell someone their feeling that way.

Just wanted to give you my perspective cause I'm a little like that. Some people have a hard time being themselves so they do sort of 'adapt' to the current situation or company. I myself act differently depending on who I'm with and when there are a few people together than I get a little uncomfortable. Mine stems from insecurity.

You explained it fine. I know exactly what your saying because I'm the same way. I mean exactly the same. It can be very frustrating. I've been on some anti-depressants and been to counseling. It does get easier but I'm not sure if it will ever go away. I have trouble making friends too and thats why I came here, so if you ever wanna talk...

Silent Man

Get him a towel

You're welcome, I'm good, just extremely booooooooored here.

Hey amaranth_04 . How's it goin?

Well you could just call him to chat. Get him thinking about you. If he doesn't mention getting together some time during the conversation then say 'Hey we should hang out sometime'. He may not ask right then but maybe next time you guys speak. image removed

Yea thats a good idea. Thigs may be COMPLETELY different in person than they were on line. I know first hand.

Let him go. If it was meant to be he'll be back. In the meantime...enjoy your life.