Thx for your advice Mermayd , My lover and me had a long talk and I told him I cant go on , we both sick of the roller coaster feeling, He asked me not to stop until he knows after conseling because he is not certain & he wants to make sure he got the right choice , he said if he leaves not because of me , its just not work. He is so depressed , stick in a loveless marriage and he doesnt want to lose me . We both cried .we were unexpected fall in love and love so deeply. I understand it is very difficult for him to leave his marriage......Im not strong enough just walk away from this , I really love him very much ! what should I do?
Dreamer