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Day 66 . . . Feeling crappy again...the loneliness, self assurance, no confidence, abandonment, bruised ego . . .it all keeps coming in waves and boy when it hits it hits HARD.... I've made my bed so will just have to lie in it hoping that things get better . . . Please God soon . . . Please x
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DAY 60.....yippeeee!! Finally made day 60 and truthfully it feels amazing to get this far, I rarely think of her and when I do I just push it to the back of mind and let it pass. I'm ding so much better in every way, I have even joined a dating site and have 3 dates next week, now I'm not holding out much hope but beats staying in that's for sure. I have almost completely picked myself up and it feels great...time will be my best friend now as I continue NC and slowly but surely never think of her again. I was desperate at the beginning but having listened to you all I found some direction and I guess now I know that something's are just not meant to be. Her Loss! Thank you all here at ENA..... Every one be strong and concentrate on what you have and who you are, not what you haven't got and who you aren't.... I will keep you posted time goes on xxxxxxx
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DAY 47 . . Well I'm happy to have got this far but am in no way Healed.....need more time and lots of it. I've stopped kidding myself and properly and fully gone NC, by this I mean the phone number is now erased, my Facebook deleted. I have been on a couple of dates but was really not ready for any of them, in fact felt really guilty and couldn't wait to leave, so no more dates for me ,at least not for a long while. I'm just going to be on my own now and see where that takes me. . . I'm going to try to look after myself and care for myself, Put my energy into work and me...and who knows what the future might bring? I used to be so happy being single just living my life and never needed a girlfriend.....I hope to maybe be like that again. Everything is in Gods hands now so lets begin.
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Day 38- Feeling a little crappy again today...feeling alone.....Hope this passes soon x
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DAY 31 OR 3? I managed to reach day 29 then my birthday when she sent good wishes....I replied thanks and that's all.....so im not sure if I broke NC or not... either way im carrying this on as it seems good! I wish we had no contact on my birthday though....Full NC is so much better x Im actually doing ok, though the contact made me think all about her again....damn it!!
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Day 28.... And I feel so much calmer, and ready to move on...yes if it crosses my mind it hurts, hey being dumped is awful, but this NC has worked wonders....on day 1 I de-friended her on fb and cut all other ties, not easy to do but an essential part of my healing. Its my birthday tomorrow and I wonder if ill here anything....how will I feel? Ill keep you all updated.
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Day 21 . . . Well everyone its true!! Each day does get easier, maybe not a lot but enough....I still get the blues and I still have really down moments but way less than before... I'm staying NC for sure..... I really hope that every one else is doing ok too xxx
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Day 15 . . I had a really good day a couple of days ago felt normal, didn't think about her and was smiling and joking at work! but it didn't last..it was just a glimmer of my former self. Today is hard again, 15 days NC...And my head feels muzzy, my thoughts are sad and I am wallowing in self pity...My ego is bruised and am struggling to smile. I want off this Ride!!
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Day 11 Almost broke NC today as isn't it easier to have even a small part of her in your life rather than nothing? Where is she? who's she with? so many insecure questions and thoughts...I hate this Roller Coaster and wanna get off...... I even drafted a long email of pity, saying im sorry....as yet I haven't sent it..... Im having a tough day today .
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Day 10 . . Only just found this and figured it rude if I read and never shared, I was dumped by my girl December 30th having been cruelly ignored and strung along most of the month, our last face to face contact was that evening when she dropped the bomb and then cuddled me and said lets stay friends and see each other in January. We hugged tight and she left. . . By New years Eve I was Devastated, Crying, lonely and Broken. She txed me to have a great 2014 and that im very special. I texd back that I too want to be friends but right now cant and need time to heal and that I love her, she replied that she needs time too and that at the moment I want to start a building a friendship she will be there. I did not reply . . . its now day 10 . . . . I'm a Mess, the bad days out way the good, I closed my FB account so no little reminders and feel so alone. So if you don't mind I would really like to join you on here as reading your posts makes me feel a lot less alone . .