harley24

Day 2 It seems like way longer. ...I mean wow. I keep thinking he'll cave and text me he misses me as usual but he hasn't. ... I can't believe he's just done? After all we've been through. All I've sacrificed for him. He told me I was his whole world and text me if I was ever gone non stop to tell me how much he missed me. ... and now I just don't matter? I know there's no girl. Especially since he decided to move away. ... But I can't see how drugs can be chosen over the one person you love? Maybe ill never understand. ..

That's good. Tonight is hard. It's 2 am and ususlly he'll contact me by now about anything....I can't stop crying I'm so upset. I feel like he just doesn't care. Although I know it's not true. It still hurts so bad to think he's fine right now. ... maybe he's not. If not why is he doing this God I'd give anything to be in his arms again. I miss him so much. I Will not text him. ...I will not text him. ... Ugh

This would be day 1 NC. He text me at 2 am on the 27th. Basically saying he heard I've went out with some friends and that I must be real heart broken... but I am. ... I can't stop. I know I shouldnt think about him. What he's doing. Where he is. I keep getting flashes of his eyes. So crazy beautiful blue. Of how he use to come up behined Me and hug me and whisper "you're so beautiful and amazing" or how he'd hug me at night if I had a bad dream. ... Its hard to believe that just days ago we were together and now I'm 4 hours away and he's planning to move even farther away? I keep thinking he will just come be with me like I asked when he was breaking it off but not certain he wanted to actually go through with it. All I can do is hope he realizes moving there isn't as good as being with me anywhere... I know hell contact me again. I'm pretty sure bc he hasn't gone more than two days without saying he loves me or misses me. Toughest christmas I've ever had.