First off I would like to say that I am always willing to accept that I could be wrong, and if the advice I receive here shows that I am then I will do everything in my power to be better.
My girlfriend and I have been going out since New Year and hit it off very quickly. We were sleeping togeather a few days after our first real date. As this was the party season we were out a lot with people we worked with (As we worked in the same building at the time). She had confesed her love to me about one week in and wanted to stay almost every night. The problems began about a month in when a (now habitual) mid week get-togeather with my friend Chris and my girlfriend upset me. It had been a talking point that Chris' girlfriend didn't like giving him oral sex and my girlfriend hounded the subject for some time. She even commented that she would do that all day if she could Being drunk I laughed and forgot about it. He lapsed into an alchohol fueld coma on my couch, i closed the door to the living room (normally always left open) and we went to bed. About 4 my Girlfriend woke me saying he was in the other room shouting about waking up in my house, (I'm a very deep sleeper) I rolled over to try get back to sleep saying "just leave him". she lay there for a minute watching me seem to sleep again then got up, went into the livingroom with someone she tells me she actually doesn't like and closes the door over (Instead of putting the usualy stopper under it) and then silence. for ten minutes i lay there listen, i was surprised she had actually gotten up, but more so that she was now in there with him and not a sound was being made (Walls are thin in my flat). Suddenly this absolutely intense feeling of dread hit me from the bottom of my stomuch and i thought i knew exactly what was going on, so intense as it was. i made a hell of a racket getting up and of course when i stormed into the living room they were both on separate couches, her looking at the ground and him putting his shoes on (he took them off the night before for the sleep on the sofa). I just couldn't believe what i was feeling, but i knew something had gone on. But i had to just stay quiet what proof was there, just someone checking on a friend.
On other visits over the next few week when drunk he actually asked her to "go down on him", she bent over in front of him revealing almost all of her cheast, made signals while hugged up to me, and he even arrived at my door when only she was in and was alone for over 2 hours with him, (she said he was sleeping it off on the couch the whole time)and of her own accord put her mobile number onto his. There have been a string of other things that have made me wonder if she is actually doing something behind my back.
I'v tried to go about this the smart way and discuss it with her in a calm and rational manner. she denies it all and tells me i'm paranoid then drags me off to bed. I have tried to let this go as just a string of coincidences but it is eating me alive. All i think about when not sleeping is weather or not she is lying to me and my mood is altered accordingly into a foul one. I'v gotten so emotional that i'v asked her to leave many times. I honestly don't want this to be true, she's cried whilst begging me not to finnish with her, but my heart tells me something happened. I just do not trust her and if this is not resolved i must finnish with her to avoid a horribly unhappy relationship for us both.
