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Hey, I understand how you feel. I'v recently lost the love of my life. I'm still in the state of mind where I don't think I should let go. How ever I think that you should let go NOW before you end up hurting more and more that you lead yourself on. If she has these feelings after trying again, I think she just really needs to sit herself down to think what she wants, but in the mean time,I don't think you need to sit back and wait for her decision. That's something that I just realized. I got my NO answer just 2 days ago and it's killing me so bad. I to have been taking some medicine to try to help me out, but not even medicine seems to help me. I still feel like I shouldn't let go but then again in the back of my mind I know it's the smart thing and the only thing that I can do. Don't get me wrong, this is the hardest thing for me to do, I still pray and hold on to hope that when I go and get the rest of my things, that she might of woke up that day and opened her eyes to see what is here for her, but if I keep holding on to that, and it never happens, it's going to crush me even more. Like I said I know it's hard to let go, but one thing that I think I've also realized is that a weak man gives up trying, but a strong man fights, but then again, it takes a lot stronger man to let go and to do the best thing. Right now, I'm still trying to listen to my own words and yes I still myself have not let go. Honestly I'm confused, because someone gave me advice one time and said, if I really feel that this lady is the one for me then I need to give her, her time and space for the time being but not to let go completely, but it all comes down to the big "WHAT IF" I guess what I'm trying to say is just do what you think is best, not what you want to happen. Last but not least I'll leave this with you. "Love and fight for the one you love, but you can only take a beating to your heart for so long!" Good luck on your decision and I hope and pray for the best for you.

I have never really did anything like this before, but right now, I am desperate. I was w/a very wonderful lady for a year and a half. She told me about a month ago that she needed her space and some time to think about what she really wants. We were living w/each other and then this happened. I was forced to be the one to move out because of income status. I used to live 5min away from work and now I drive about and hour every morning and yet every morning I have to pass by my old home (home which me and her lived in). She still lives in the Apt by herself. Yesterday (Aug 14,) was her birthday so last Friday (Aug 9) I planned to do something hoping to stop this break up and get back home. I did the whold thing, I mean, I typed a 3 page poem, I drew her a picture (I like to draw) I bought her a promise ring and showered the place w/3 dozen roses. I got the key to get in the apt from the office because I am still on the lease. What I did that day I considered a do or die plan. Meaning, this is it, she will either give me my chance or just say no. Well, I received my answer and it was "NO" I understand that I should go ahead and let go, but my heart seems to tell me different. I have a gut feeling that I need to lay low and just hold on just enough until she opens her eyes. She was the sweetest girl I have ever been with, but now she seems to be the most cold hearted person. I can't cope w/this. I even try to keep my mind occupied,but she still sits in front of it all the time. It's hard for me to face this because she did so much for me and yet so did I for her, and now all of sudden she tells me it's over. I asked her to be honest w/me if there was another person and she promised and promised me that there isn't. She did tell me that her next semester at College is coming up and she just really wants to concentrate on her school. So she says that if she is w/me that I would be some sort of destraction to her. I don't agree. I have a saying for myself. She told me to be strong and to show her that I can be strong. My saying is this "Only week people give up on there love, and only the strong will fight and fight for the love he loves" I hope my situation that I just try to explain is not to hard to understand, but please bare w/me my mind is not right and I'm really just looking for something to get her back or just to help me out in anyway. If anyone has any advice for me, "PLEASE" help. Thanks