I already see a therapist but I’m not really feeling any benefit. So far she actually keeps telling me that I’m doing great and have developed some fantastic skills and coping methods but I just wasn’t feeling good at all. I intend to tell her I’m not feeling any benefit when I see her next.
I think those saying focussing too much on the books can be negative are right. I think I was a bit in my head with oh no how can I get better, need to really focus on my therapy and getting better.
I have been trying a few things, recorded hypnotherapy, affirmations and meditation for self esteem and confidence (some by Marisa Peer) and I do feel like something has shifted. When my ex ended things with me I was very focussed on taking care of myself and it gave me a particular feeling that I’m feeling again in the past few days. I think the change from “get better” mentality to “take care” mentality is probably helping.
I notice I’m not worrying so much and my constant intrusive thoughts aren’t negative or abusive, they have become more neutral. If this is down to the few recordings I have been listening to then I think that’s pretty impressive!