Day 33
Yesterday, I believe was a watershed moment. I finally had bouts of anger and emnity instead of straight depression and grief. It wasn't justified but at least I am moving up the emotional ladder. For the first time, I recognized the not so good in you and started to look objectively at some of the dysfunction of our relationship. Yeah, I still care for her and would love just to talk to her, but I am determined to gp through this. I see you have been a necessary component to my growth.
I can't wait until I get to the point where I am free from want from everything except the source of my life.