what's wrong with me?

[Aporia]

okay, last week i saw a ad on the newspaper looking for people to recruit for a new bar/resteraunt that was opening in in the city near i live. i decided to go to it tonight i had to look for the hotel that the interviews are being held in.

 

[the actual resteraunt is still being built] so i went into the hotel - feeling fine i'm usually nervous before interviews but this time i was fine going in.

 

when i got to the reception i was told to go upstairs so i went up [the place was soo big] and at the end of the upstairs reception there were 4 men sitting at a desk so i went up and one of them said i had to fill out a form before i go in.

 

i could hear crowds of people down the hall outside the interview room laughing they were just so loud and then suddenly for no reason i got the urge to burst into tears or something and i felt dizzy so i stood up to tell the guy is it on tomorow instead and he said yeah and looked at me reaaaly strangely so did the group of guys at the top of the stairs.

 

it felt like everyone was staring at me and i started to shake uncontollably and just walked out of the place still feeling like everyones watching me and talking about me laughing

 

that was the weirdest thing ever what happened me

 

i still feel terrible and when igot home just a while ago i coundn't stop crying

 

it's on tomorow morning again and i have the application form but i'm terrified it [whatever it is] will happen again

[ShySoul]

Aporia,

 

I've had times where I am out and I have felt the urge to just be away, to be anywhere but there. It is an odd and scary feeling. And I've asked myself what it is. I'm not sure myself.

 

Has this happened before? Do you tend to get really anxious before having to do something important? Any other problems you are dealing with that could be throwing your emotions out of whack?

[Aporia]

hey shysoul thanks for the reply,

 

i don't think this happened me before i just felt really panicy and my voice was shaking. i have problems at the moment but their not as serious as they used to be.

 

i need the job so i'll have something to do but i just feel like if i go tomorow it'll happen again.

 

i get reaaly parinod felt like everyone was wondering ''what's she doing here ect.'' it's really upseting it's like i've no confidece in myself or something - that never happened before...