I called my ex ex. Because I realized she was the only one who ever listened, but when we were together I was just like my recent ex. Didn't want to communicate, didn't apriciate what i had....and so on. We talked for hours (with my ex ex). She was very nice and she calmed me down. Told me what I was so I could find myself again. Something my recent ex didn't know how. She's just not mature enough yet or never really loved me. I guess. I wasn't mature enough eather when I was her age. So I'm not really angry with her.
I gave my 100% and it is time to stop blaming myself. Its not just my fault. I gave her all the love she needed and all the support all the patience ... but no return. I've learned a lot from this. I hope she will 2 one day.
I know that one day she will call me and give me the same speach I gave 2 my ex ex. (or she will give it to someone else - i hope it will be me, 'couse I love her and will be there for her for the rest of my life even though as just a friend)Then I'll be happy to know that mi diosa has learned her lesson like me. Then she might understand me...
anyway I'm moving on. I need someone who knows how to listen and care about me...