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Now that my job is on the rocks so to say, I wish I picked the other training, so I'd be with you on your birthday. Then you wouldn't have been with her. We'd spend 5 nights together... We could have went fishing... show me where you grew up... Then I wouldn't have gotten sick and cranky and treated you bad. It would have been heavenly.

How's your mom's post birthday celebration? I miss your little escapes from the family to call and talk to me. But those are just those... escapes. How I wish we we're legit and introduced to them.... Is she with you? Are you happy? I talked to A*drin last night. I'm sorry I told him about us. He said exactly what you have said. Except for the reason why you can't just leave her. Well one of the reasons... But now that he has reiterated how kind you are, yes.... I wasn't there 100% I always met your kindness with a grain of salt and suspicion.... I'm sorry. Still missing you. Still worried about you. Still scared and still loving you...

Today you will be happy & proud of me... all those months of you pushing me to start with my daughter's therapy. I've done it. She did very well... She's on the right track. Wish you could have seen her. Of could know that I've already done it. Thank you for the money gave. Thank you for loving my child...

NC 1st night was difficult as we used to talk and keep the phone on until we fell asleep. Until I hear your sleeping breath... I thought about you until I fell asleep. I dreamed of you. Awake or asleep you in my sub and conciousness. Are you with her? Making plans with her? Are you happy? I am sad...

I'm still shaking... I can still smell your car... I can still feel you... I hope you got home o.k.... Are you thinking of me?.. Please hurry... Do what has to be done soon... I need you. I will miss you. I miss you.. Come back to me...