I miss you so much. I miss you hugging me tightly in bed. I miss you kissing me good night and good morning. I miss everything we had together.
... but it was all one sided. YOU cheated on me. YOU made this happen. YOUR the reason my confidence and self esteem has been crushed. I didn't stop loving you, but this is all YOUR fault. If you had said no, we would be living together right now and possibly even be engaged.
Because of what YOU did, I'm hurting... and you had the choice to say no. You made the wrong decision and you knew the pain it would inflict on me... but you did it anyway.
I will never hate you. I will never forget you. I hope I can forgive you truly one day.
I'll always be here for you because your punishment and consiquence for your terrible mistake is losing me... the best thing that was in your life. I would've never let you down. I loved you more than you could ever know... and you lost it.
So when I think about how lonely my life seems without you, I think that I would rather feel this lonely than know that I'm with someone who doesn't respect me and who cheated on me. I don't doubt you loved me. Life and emotions are so complex, but one thing that I am SURE of, is that you definitetly had no respect for me.