Arg, it is your birthday soon. Can't surprise you. Can't call you or text you or see your face. I still can't believe we are apart. You were my best friend for years. I was so caught off guard by what happened. I really never wanted to be apart from you. I kicked you out because I was hurt that you lied to me...I know we both made mistakes, and I kept pushing to get back together, which pushed you away....I am still not over it or you. I try so hard to move on, to find someone, but I just can't. I still love you as much as I ever did. I think I always will. I hope I learn to live with it.