SeattleSigh

Miss you, kid. Want to reach out and say hi. Want to talk through things. It hurts not to do so, but I have to stay strong. It's time.

Arg, it is your birthday soon. Can't surprise you. Can't call you or text you or see your face. I still can't believe we are apart. You were my best friend for years. I was so caught off guard by what happened. I really never wanted to be apart from you. I kicked you out because I was hurt that you lied to me...I know we both made mistakes, and I kept pushing to get back together, which pushed you away....I am still not over it or you. I try so hard to move on, to find someone, but I just can't. I still love you as much as I ever did. I think I always will. I hope I learn to live with it.

Arg, this is tough. It's almost what would have been our five year anniversary, and I want to call you and talk with you to hear your voice. Better yet, I want to hold you in my arms and let the rest of the world disappear as it only does when I am with you....I still don't understand how I can feel this way and how you don't feel this way anymore. I hope you are happy and getting what you need, my friend. I miss you. I really do.

Be happy, kiddo. I wish you the best, even if it's not with me and it hurts to be apart from you. Take care, my friend.