Jane00

It seemed like I would never get to this point, but finally after three months I can honestly say that I would never go back to you. Each day I care less about where and how you are, what you are doing, whether you are with her or not... I don't know how I could ever think of you as "perfect". You have a lot of growing up to do. Do you miss the way I treated you yet? I don't think so. You almost seem to enjoy being in relationships where there's no respect. I hope you get sick of her and break up with her for the 4th time. I have to admit that I'm still upset but soon I won't care anymore. If I see you I will feel so tempted to be mean and humilliate you. But I won't. I'll pretend to be completely indifferent. I want you to know that I don't even want you as a friend anymore. You don't deserve that I even acknowledge you.

I wish you knew how much better I'm doing without you. I am improving many things about myself, learning new stuff... And I wouldn't have done that if I was still wasting my time with you. Now that I've fallen out of love, I realize that you are nowhere near as perfect as I thought you were. In fact, I think you are a terrible man, boyfriend, and friend. You always were an immature, dishonest, cheating, lying a**hole. You were never good enough for me and I am starting to feel happy that I didn't move in with you, that our relationship didn't last any longer, and especially that I didn't marry you or had children with you. Even though you cheated on me and caused me this horrible suffering, I know I was the one who benefited most from our relationship. What I learned, what I gained... it's definitely worth it. I am a better, stronger person because of it. You, on the other hand, never seem to learn and will probably keep making the same mistakes with women over and over. I don't think you are going to change. You disrespect, betray, and hurt the women who love and trust you. You are already 30 years old and you f*cked up horrendously with me after I treated you with so much love and respect. I don't know what it was that I ever saw in you. You were good at hiding your true colors.

I can't wait for the day when I can finally think about you and everything that happened between us, and feel no pain, no anger, only indifference. I thought I was already getting over this, but today I think I saw you driving her truck and immediately those feelings started coming back. It's kind of funny how I am still obsessed with you, even after knowing what a scumbag you are and that there are a lot of men out there who are much better and who would actually appreciate and respect me.

I hope you always continue to be the pathetic loser you are and that you are never happy with any woman. I hope somebody breaks your heart like you did to me and you are left devastated, alone, and sexually frustrated. I hope you realize what you lost when you cheated on me and left me and that you regret it badly for the rest of your life. From what I could tell I treated you better than your other girlfriends and better than she ever will. And ironically you are the person who's caused me the most suffering. Why did you do this to me? What did I ever do to deserve this? Why couldn’t you just be honest and tell me the truth instead of cheating on me and then leaving me anyways? You are such a piece of scum. You are very ungrateful, inconsiderate, and incredibly stupid. Sometimes thinking about the unfairness of this situation gets overwhelming and I can’t stop myself from crying. I wish I didn’t love you anymore. You don’t deserve it.

It's so hard to accept that it's over, that I'll never have you in my arms again and that you won't ever be mine again, even though I know you probably have cheated on every woman you've been with and probably will continue to do it for the rest of your life. Even then, sometimes I feel like I'd give anything to have you back. It's amusing how love can cloud our judgement to the point that we become obsessed with one person, even if we know that person is a waste of time and does not deserve us at all. Especially when there are literally millions of people who are a good match for us and who would be a much better choice.

I don't want you back at all anymore. But all the feelings and emotions caused by your betrayal refuse to go away. Sometimes I despise you, other times I hate you and hope you pay for what you did to me. And unfortunately, other times I miss you so much and I feel like I would give anything to have you back... even though I know that you are an emotionally immature idiot, a liar, an inconsiderate ***hole, and a cheater. I don't think you'll ever change. I had all the love, respect, and trust in the world for you. I don't think she'll treat you as good as I would have. You both seem to be very immature for your age, and it seems like she's just as pathetic and mediocre as you are. You're perfect for each other. I guess that's why you went back to her. I'm glad you're her problem now and not mine. You're not a man. You are a coward and a horrible human being. This is awful and I wish nobody had to go through this.