Jane00

I think I was a victim of a G.I.G.S. relationship. You left her because you liked me and wanted to be with me. I know you did even if you always denied it. You're too old to be that unstable. And that's not your only problem, you are also a cheater. You are so messed up in the head. You have so much growing up to do, and that's coming from someone who's 8 years younger than you. I'm glad I didn't waste any more time being in a "relationship" with you. I was so in love that I didn't see all your horrible flaws, but now that I no longer love you I know that I'm so much better off without you. Unfortunately I didn fall in love with you. And I don't think you'll ever know how much you hurt me, or even care. Oh, and you're nothing special in bed either... I can't say that I have no feelings for you yet, but I will be there soon.

Is there any way that you can stop having contact with him and his friend? Or at least ask that friend to please not talk about him when you are around? That might be what's stopping you from feeling better and moving on. I made a lot of progress after I was able to take my ex completely out of my life.

It feels terrible knowing that you probably won't ever contact me again. You probably see me as "just another one of your exes", as the woman you were with before you went back to her. I really, really dislike you.

Tonight I actually had a lot of fun with my friends, and for the first time I felt comfortable with the fact that you won't be in my life anymore. I know two of those guys like me... and I was wishing that you were the one going crazy over me. I must admit that unfortunately I still miss you. It kind of made me feel good when a friend said that my ex "must be crazy" for letting me go (haha). Simple things like that help me feel better about myself after how worthless you made me feel. What you did was really low. I want you out of my mind completely so I can finally move on.

RitaTrue you just described my ex lol

Stupid loser get out of my head! I don't mean to sound arrogant, cause I'm not, but I was already out of your league when we were together and now I am even more. I wish you could see for yourself.

It doesn’t matter how good my day is or what I do or how much fun I have. At the end of the day when I come home I always think about you. I still love you...somewhat. I’m not really sure what I feel for you. I just know that I want you back with me to be able to hold you and kiss you again. And knowing that you feel nothing for me and that you are back with her really hurts me a lot. I wish you were normal. You yourself know that you are not. I wish you would think and feel like a normal man and come back to me. A part of me would trade all these new friends and hobbies that I have in a heartbeat to have you back with me. I would do anything for you. I promise I would make you happy. Unlike you, I would be faithful to you for the rest of my life. It’s absurd how I became so attached to you in a matter of months, and how I want you back despite knowing what kind of man you are. I can’t even be attracted to other men. It would feel weird to hug or kiss someone else. Somehow I feel that no one can compare to you (…). But I know that if I got back with you I would only be setting myself up for failure. Any woman that happens to fall in love with you is destined to be hurt, lied to, and get cheated on. I’m still in a dilemma trying to decide if I should acknowledge you or just ignore you if I bump into you. I know if I ignore you we might never speak again. But if I don’t and you are the one who ignores me it will hurt like crazy, and I don’t want to give you another opportunity to make me suffer. I know I have to let this go.

It's been almost 4 months and I still can't get over how you betrayed me. It was too much for me to deal with in such a short period of time. How could you be so cruel and inconsiderate? Hell, why are you so damn immature and stupid? Seriously, at your age you “think” you love someone and a few months later you just “change your mind”? You decide that you actually still have feelings for your ex because being the idiot you are, you left your relationship with her unresolved and jumped straight into another relationship. I wish it had been only the fact that you changed your mind, which would have been painful enough. But no, you also had to go and CHEAT on me. I know you didn’t love me or want to be with me anymore. But I know I didn’t deserve that. You have no idea of how much worse my pain was because of your infidelity. You didn’t expect me to find out did you? Even then, how can you have that in your conscience? Do you even realize the seriousness of what you did? I would expect that being 30 and after at least 7 relationships, you would act a little more mature, man up and actually be honest with me and tell me how you were feeling at the time. You knew I would understand and respect your decision. That’s the only thing I asked of you, to be honest with me no matter how much you thought it would hurt me. How can it be easier to go and have sex with your ex than to tell me you didn’t love me anymore? That was the ultimate betrayal, the ultimate disrespect. You preferred to do that and dump me anyways. You couldn’t keep it in your pants until after we were no longer together. You disgust me. I try not to cry but I feel like I'm just bottling up my feelings and I end up crying anyways. It makes me so angry to know that I’m crying and suffering for someone who doesn’t deserve me, someone who doesn’t even think about me anymore, who doesn’t even care. I just want this pain to be over. And I don’t want to get involved with any other man again. I can’t put up with this BS all over again.

Ever since you cheated I've known that you are not worth my time and you are not good enough for me. But now I'm starting to actually FEEL it. It's weird, considering how 3 months ago I would've done ANYTHING in my power to bring you back to me. Now I'm starting to really feel that you'd be a waste of time and you don't deserve a woman like me.

I must confess that today I missed you like crazy. I was seriously thinking of going to places where I know you like to hang out, hoping to see your car outside... Then I remembered that you are probably with her. It made me furious and very sad for a moment, but then I realized that it really was "a blessing in disguise", as they say. I know I should be thankful that she took you away from me in time before we moved in together or got married. I can already imagine a few years from now, me being at work and you messing around with another woman in our house. You don't respect her either... oh no. But that's not my problem. You are her problem now. She can deal with your cheating a**. Oh and apparently she did know that you were still my boyfriend when you spent the night at her house. See? You are perfect for each other. You are both scum. You are a 30-year old teenager. I'm glad you are out of my life. I'm just waiting for that day when I feel nothing for you anymore.

It's so unfair that while I'm still feeling bad, you are enjoying your life with her. It makes me sick. I hope you are not happy.

Ugh. I just remembered how much of a worthless sl*t you are. And that you are most likely with her and will be for a long time, because she has no dignity and you can't live without sex. And if you ever get in contact with me it'll probably be because she dumped you and/or you got bored of her. She can have you all for herself. She can deal with your broke a**. I don't want you in my life ever again, not even as a friend. It wouldn't be the same anymore. And you know what else is good? I was going to buy you a $400 watch. Now I'll get to keep that money and get something for myself. And I was planning something really nice for your birthday. Now I don't have to worry about that either. I'll only worry about myself and my family and friends who were with me through this difficult time. I want to be over this as soon as possible. I've wasted so much time on you already.

You've been on my mind so much these past couple of days. Thinking that I still love you and you probably don't even care about me anymore really kills me, still. I keep wondering if you really feel guilty like you said, if you care about me at all. I feel this urge to know if you still think about me, if you miss me, if you would like to see me again. I've thought that maybe you haven't called me because you feel bad or embarrassed, because you think I don't want to talk to you after I didn't answer that text from you, or that you just want to give us both time... God I wonder if you will ever get in touch with me again. I want to see you and talk to you so bad. I don't want to have false hope thinking that maybe you feel this way too. I'll just assume that you want nothing to do with me. I know, it shouldn't even matter anymore. I'm just torturing myself by thinking about that. But the truth is that I still love you. Even when I know you don't deserve it, you're nothing special and you're not good enough for me, I still love you. Not because of who you really are but because of everything that we shared. None of this matters anyways. I won't ever contact you again anymore. It kills me but I know it's for the best. I'll just let you think that I have no feelings for you, that I don't want to see you or talk to you or remain friends, that I don't care about what happens to you anymore. Goodbye my love... I really thought you were the love of my life. I do miss you and I want to hold you in my arms again and kiss your lips but I know that's not going to happen. I can't even feel attracted to anyone else. I don't want anyone else. You are all I want. I wish I could trade all these men who have shown interest in me, for you. It's been so hard for me to fully accept the fact that you won't ever be in my life again. It hurts so much.

I just remember when we started dating, when my ex before you was still putting me through hell, you said that "it broke your heart to see my eyes full of pain"... Who would've thought that you would hurt me much more than he ever did. I don't think you'll ever know how much I cried for you and still do sometimes. You are heartless. I don't know why I have such bad luck with men. Like I told you when we broke up, I try my best to make my partner happy, love them unconditionally, and what do i get? A bunch of inconsiderate a**holes? I'd rather be alone!

I suppose this means I am making progress! I was trying to remember why I fell in love with you in the first place, what made you so special, and I can't remember! Most of the things I loved about you were traits that I thought you posessed (kindness, honesty, etc.), but you don't. I still love you as a person, as the man whom I loved so deeply, with whom I shared so many great experiences... but that's it. I don't see anything else that makes you deserve what I'm feeling for you. I can't wait for that day when you won't even cross my mind anymore.

I made a list of the traits that my "ideal man" would have. And guess what, you are nowhere close. You are nothing special and now that I have taken off the "rose-colored glasses" and took you off the pedestal, I know that well. Then why the hell am I still in love with you? I know you are not good enough for me and I'm much better off without you. And even then I still love you and deep down I wish you would come back to me. I'm such an idiot. I log in to facebook and who do I see in the "People You May Know" column? Her and your sister. Stupid facebook lol

Sometimes I think I shouldn't get involved with anyone ever again. I don't want to go though this pain again and I don't want to risk hurting someone else either. Thanks to you I'm scared of falling in love again. Thanks a**hole.

I was thinking: that night before the night you spent with her, when you supposedly went "camping" with your friend... You spent that night with her too, didn't you? We both knew that your cellphone would get no signal at your friend's ranch, that's why you told me you were going there... so I wouldn't bother you at all by texting you and you could f*ck her in peace. Knowing you, the next day when I was trying to get in touch with you you might've told her that we had already broken up and that I was still trying to get in touch with you, making me seem desperate. And what about that time you went out of town with "her brother"? You said you'd be back that same day. Yet you came back on the following day. Don't think I didn't find out. You can't imagine the anxiety I felt when you wouldn't even respond to a single one of my texts and I knew that you were out of town with her. And remember the next day when we went for a walk together and I told you that the only thing I asked of you was honesty? And you said you felt confortable enough with me to be honest if you didn't want to be with me anymore? What happened to that? You turned out to be much more of a lying coward that I thought. You are truly the lowest of the low. You disgust me. You have so much growing up to do.

You are a sorry excuse for a man, you're just good at hiding it... well, not really. Maybe at first. I feel kind of bad for whoever keeps you.

All those times you told me you loved me, were you lying? I still don't understand why you would hurt me like this. I think about how well I treated you and how you treated me like trash and it makes me sick. So this is it? After all we went through together I just do you the favor of walking out of your life and you go back to your ex and completely forget that I ever existed? We go from spending every day together to acting like strangers? I don't understand how you can be so cold. Our relationship might've been short, but hey, we were a couple, we still shared a lot of experiences together during that period of time. Don't say you still care about me. If you did you would've broken up with me the way I deserved instead of making me go through the painful experience of catching the man I loved cheating on me. Sometimes it hurts to hate you when I think about how we were just 5 months ago. It kills me to do this, but if you contact me, if you happen to remember my birthday and text me, I will not reply and I will not contact you ever again... So hard to do when deep down I wish I could hold you in my arms again. But you don't deserve my love or my friendship or anything from me. I will treat you like you never mattered, because that's what you really deserve. We would've been awesome as friends. What a shame. I've had two serious relationships and they were both horrible. I'm so good at finding ungrateful, mentally unstable bastards.

"Why can't you turn and face me? Why can't you turn against me? You fuc**ng disappoint me" Those lines remind me so much of you, "baby". I wish you had acted like a man your age and just told me how you were feeling (or not feeling anymore), instead of me having to pry the truth out of you. Do you really have so much trouble keeping it in your pants that you couldn't wait until we were no longer together before sleeping with your ex? You disgust me. You don't even know what or who you want. You have a lot of growing up to do. I don't know why this has started to really bother me again, but I can't stop wondering why you stopped loving me all of a sudden, why you lost all respect for me two months after you were "going crazy for me". Either you never loved me the way you said you did, or you did love me but you left your relationship with her unresolved. And after realizing that you still loved her, your feelings for me didn't continue to develop as they normally would have in that situation... either way you are an emotionally immature idiot. And I don't really blame you for that but I do blame you for your lack of integrity and respect. I don't know why I am still thinking about this because it shouldn't matter anymore. I was a fool for expecting a chronic cheater without a conscience to suddenly have one just because was is with me. And now that my feelings for you are mostly gone, I've realized that you are nothing special. You are funny, attractive and good at sex. But that's it. Now what is really bothering me is the fact that after how much you made me suffer, nothing happened to you. I don't think you feel any guilt or remorse. And you have her, who has no dignity and will do anything to stay with you even after you have cheated on her too. I probably did you a favor by disappearing from your life. God, I hope karma is real because I'm getting tempted to give you what you deserve myself. I hope you still remember all I did for you, ungrateful bastard.

This is exactly what happened to me with my ex.

I hope one day you realize what you lost and all the pain you inflicted on me. I hope you regret it but I seriously doubt it. I can't believe I'm still in love with the jerk who disrespected me and hurt me so much. I'm such an idiot.

Thank you thelastsong. It will get better for both of us! I just wish that moment would get here sooner. These feelings are torture. I really don't wish this upon anybody.

What the hell is wrong with you? You are seriously messed up in the head. And why me of all people? Is this what I get for being good to you? You knew I didn't want a serious relationship. We would've still been intimate as friends. Why did you have to make me believe that I meant the world to you and that you wanted to spend the rest of your life with me? Why did you rush things to the point that, after only a month into our relationship, you were already talking about marriage? I stupidly started feeling the same way. I fell for you hard. All you did was hurt me. I wish you had handled the situation like a grown up man and told me you didn't want to be with me anymore, instead of cheating on me with your stupid ex and then breaking up with me anyways. And on top of that, after we broke up you treated me like I never mattered to you and like our relationship never meant anything to you. You are a coward. She can keep you, you are both pathetic. I don't think I'll ever understand why you would do this to me. You are heartless.