Thank you, for your advice i believe you are right maybe i am denying it in my heart that i love him. I also, realized the other day , i had started to cry thinking about him. and i asked myself why am i crying and as i was thinking i let what i really thought come out and it was that iam scared he will stop loving me. And, i think thats why i really do cry alot because iam scared that maybe tommrow he may not love me like ill always love him . but why am i scared that oneday he might not love me like i do ? is it insecurity? and to your question it is because we are not going out i really dont know the answer to that ......... but you know your advice has me really thinking and if you are online and have a screen name maybe you can instant message me and you can help me understand alittle more thank you so much .....