SacredSin

Thank you to all of you for your honest response... I really do feel alot better knowing that there are so many individuals that care so much. He and I have talked about it, and while improvement in both of us is much needed.. *and i know the fights will probably still remain* we have to take this step by step... I just want him to understand that I need to feel more appreciated than The women of porn.. If I knew that he was as attracted to me as he is to them.. then the problem would take care of itself.. with him spending less time on the web to be with me, and at the same time my insecurities would be settled.. I do love him.. and I do hope that we can both work through this together. THANK YOU *~SacredSin*~

Me and my boyfriend have been together for about 2 years. We ment online and i came up to rhode island from texas to be with him. My Choice, when we met, I knew he liked porn alot. I told him I liked porn too, thinking i did. I finally came up to rhode island *traveled 2,500 miles to be with him, and away from my family* And since i've been here all he does and all that is on his mind is porn.. he spends hours at a time looking and aweing "she looks great in that, she is hot..." for every compliment he gives me, he gives the internet women 30... I am a very insecure person... I was molested as a child, and was always put down about my physical appeareance and his obbesion with porn doesn't help. Him and I have talked about it.. He says.. IT"S MY HOBBY.. you can't take a hobby away from me.. Yet I LOVE TO SEE local bands, and he keeps me from going *not once have i gone since I've been here, because of his fear that someone will try to pick me up* So i can't have a hobby but he can? I might be imagining this.. but it seems that he only wants sex after 4hrs of webporn.. and when we DO have sex.. he pops in a movie. I ask him if he has an impotency problem.. and he says no. I feel very unattractive and undesirable, because of the fact that he can pay so much attention (it's like a first thing in the morning, and last thing at night type thing) to all these other women, and he hardly ever gives me a second look! It is hurtful.. cause I feel that I am not enough.. i feel very ugly that he would rather spend hours looking at other women, that doing something with me.. He says he loves porn.. am I second place to all these other women? Is there something I can do to control my jealousies??? thank you so much for your input! SacredSin