He is married with kids.
For a year and a half, I have been hanging on aimlessly. Although things are long over between them (way before me) and everyone in the family knows my existence, he will not initiate the D word (divorce) because he felt very guilty towards her and the children. I strongly believed that he loves, adores me like a goddness and he wants to be with me but he doesn't want to be the one to initiate the end.
We are currently separated as the situation was getting out of hand. Since then, I have chosen to live my life in another state (secluded) but we are still in contact. Yes, I loved him deeply but his approach of handling the situation just kept me wondering when he will leave me -uncertainty. I don't wish to waste my youth and passion for love but at the same time I can't seem to get out of it as I feel that I'm being unfaithful to him (after what he had done and sacrifices he made for me). I'm an extrovert person and very well-liked but I choose to be in the closure as he feels a threat because of my personality. I'm willing to do so but at the end of the day.... is it worth it?
I've met men who are willing to love me despite my estranged relationship but some how I can never give them a chance as I felt that I betrayed my existing relationship and how could I possibly ask for their trust. Am I flushing my love life away?
Does anyone have the same kind of experience? Please advise me.
Faith
