Hey,
I just wanted to try and sort some things out between us because this not talking to you is becoming really hard for me.
I know that the amount of time we've spent apart is quite short in terms of "real time" but these last 2.5 - 3 weeks have been brutal for me. If i didnt know better, I'd have to guess that its been more like a month or more since I've seen or spoken to you because of how horribly long this has dragged out for me.. This is a very long time to be out of touch with the person you love, and made even worse by the fact that its giving us no sense of what the other person is feeling about anything right now.. at least that's how its affecting me.
I want to tell you that I miss you, honestly, more than anything right now, and i'm really having a tough time not knowing if this feeling of loss and the feeling that something important is missing from my life, is exclusive to myself, or if you are in any way feeling the same way since I left. Because the way i've been feeling has been so amazingly bad that I simply cannot go without contacting you again.
I really need you to know that I love you, just as much now as I ever did, and I know that things are tough for you, right now especially, but I just really need you to know and understand that I do. That being said, I'm also aware that this alone cannot fix the things that you have to work through, but I really wish that you could look at it as a resource to be used for support and strength, rather than something that you feel is holding you back.
I've told you before, I wouldnt have been with you unless I was there by choice. It was a conscious choice I made in the beginning to accept your past and present troubles as part of the whole package that you are. I was warned of these things from others and told that I shouldnt get involved with you because of them, but because I felt so strongly about you I couldnt let such an amazing person slip through my fingers. I realized from the beginning that things might get rough, but as I'm sure you can recall, I put in as much time and work as i could to get you, and I dont regret a second of it.
During our time together, I have seen you have such great improvement in dealing with issues and problems in your life, and I've been told by many of the important people in your life, including yourself, that you're much happier since we've been together. Also, I've said it before, and I still mean it, you have made me happier than anyone i've ever met in my life, this is totally truth.
I know that because of my not fully understanding the extent of the situation you were previously dealing with, that there were times that things were trying for both of us, often due to mis-interpretation problems or some other issue, but I still say that with a firm grasp on the situation as I do now, I think that we could carry forward and continue this amazing relationship that we started together.
Since we've been together I have not regretted a moment with you, I feel more connected to you than anyone else i've ever met, and I really just want to be there with you and help you to strive overcome all that life throws at you. I cannot imagine losing you, and until this happened, I was under the impression that the feeling was mutual.. that there was a bond between us that we both could depend on each other to be there and help the other smash through whatever stood in our way..
I want you back in my life, thats pretty much as plainly as i can say what i'm feeling here. I honestly think that us not living together might be for the best, and I'm definitely willing and able to try and use this step backward with things to try to make it work from here, if you are willing to try too. I dont want to just throw away the last year of our lives for nothing..