midnightdeirdre

An example please?

Right now I’m trying to figure out how to word exactly how to tell him my personal story. Any feedback/advice please. ❤️ PM me if you prefer. Thanks!

He did eventually agree to separate checks. I'll use my gift cards for my meal and he will pay for the room.

lol he said he will pay for dinner and the room. I suggested separate checks but he said no.

He and I talked it over. Turns out, he didn't want just sex and leave; he said, "I wanted to have sex then be with each other for a bit. Cuddle, talk, touch and go for a walk then come back for round 2 of cuddling and kissing." He is going on a trip to Arizona March 29 to April 3. We finally came to a decision: I have some gift cards to Chillis restaurant in a nearby town. We will meet for dinner there, and then get a room after. I will tell my mom we are going to dinner and a movie.

What kind of support?

It just got too complicated to figure out where we should meet and how we should get there.

I have made it clear to him that I want kissing and he knows I hate doggie style.

At one point, he did say he didn't want me lying to my mom and implied another time would be better. (Obviously, he was right.)

As I said, he & I have done phone sex and have Facetimed. It's obvious we both want the same thing. He did say he's dying to know what it is I have to tell him.

I'm essentially using him as a booty for myself. Also, we never ended up meeting. Thanks for all the feedback and advice. ❤️

Omg…after I was diagnosed autistic, I’ve told people to say “autism talking” if I say something inappropriate/unusual. (Particularly when I’m texting.)

Yes I got a B.A. in January 2008. (Any classes that required writing I excelled at. Classes that required tests and quizzes I either failed OR the professor passed me with a C+ because they didn’t have the heart to fail me.) It would cost money to have me live in some kind of housing. I can’t afford it.

I own a wallet card that explains I’m autistic. I should put this on a flier and start handing this out, lol.

Before I was diagnosed with autism, none of the “real” full-time jobs I had after college lasted. I was always let go after the 90-day trial period. Being a cashier is one of the easiest jobs there is: I scan items, wish them a good day. That’s it. And it’s the only job I’ve ever had that has lasted. This is how autistic I am: I dated a guy named Jason. He moved into his friend Mike’s apartment, agreeing to nanny Mike’s daughter M-F and maybe the weekends. I got an idea to email Mike and politely ask him to give Jason the weekends off so Jason and I could have the weekends free together. Good news is I never sent the email. Everyone here told me not to. I also began stuttering when I was 9. I started stuttering on S-words. When I turned 12 it switched to D-G words. When I was hypnotized and asked why I began stuttering at such a late age, I replied “I’m different!”

Thing is, a part of me wants that too. I will admit.

Why are you concerned? And yea I’d say he does know how autistic I am.

He and I have actually been talking since 2019. So he’s known for awhile about that personal thing I want to tell him, and he has said he wants to know. We’ve even done phone sex and FaceTimed. No we never dated/hung out in high school. We did know each other well, though. He has said if we wanted to keep being friends with benefits that would be fine. I think we’ve all done that.

Well because it’s not really a date. He says he wants to meet up in a hotel room, have me tell him that personal thing, and then have sex. He said we will kiss and do whatever positions I want. That personal thing I want to tell him is this: when I was a senior in high school, I went through a really tough time with my grandmother dying, and my dad in the hospital. (My dad is still alive and doing fine.) The guy friend I want to meet up with tonight is named Tom. He is a handsome boy, Especially in high school. Thinking about him during my senior year when I was going through those tough things made me feel better. I want to tell and thank him for that. I even warned him I might get teary-eyed when I tell him. should I let it go at this point?

I guess I’m afraid that it won’t turn out as good as I hope. And if I get in trouble somehow I’ll have to admit to my parents that I lied. He said he won’t do anything I’m not comfortable with.

He said he doesn’t want to date. I do want to tell him that personal thing and make love with him. But I’m also afraid of something bad happening.

I agree, it is something I want. He said he is bringing protection.

I work as a cashier full time. I don’t pay rent. They haven’t forbidden me to date. I’m on birth control. I would think he’d bring condoms.

I obviously am severely autistic, hence the situation. My friend’s name is Tom. He actually said he doesn’t want to do dinner, just get a room and have sex. (Thinking about him got me through a tough time in high school. I’ve been meaning to tell him that. Now I think it’s kinda pointless.)

Long story short: I'm meeting up with a high school guy friend for dinner tomorrow night. We want to get a room after. Of course, I told my mom about the dinner part, and I told we're just friends. (We are. We just want to do a one-time thing.) He and I will do dinner. But we want to be intimate after. Obviously I can't tell my parents that. I have told my mom that we will see a movie at a neighboring town. I was thinking this: "Mom, a movie sounds too boring. We want to do something more fun. We were thinking we might find a place where we can hang out. Any ideas?" Then I would casually mention that he's willing to have us check into a room where we can watch old movies, and I'd be home by midnight. I know...it's ridiculous that I'm almost 40 and this is the way it is. But I'm autistic and still live at home.