midnightdeirdre

We’ve done phone sex and FaceTime-sex. Lol so really all that’s left is real physical sex. We obviously both want it.

Lol ok… I don’t think I can explain my feelings without sounding like I’m contradicting myself. I’ll try: I am attracted to him. I’m grateful that he helped me get through that tough time. I want to tell him that and have a night of passion; I want to be physically connected with him. He and I text daily and have shared videos, chatted, and FaceTimed. However I know he and I will never have a relationship. It wouldn’t work. I live at home with my parents and he has a teenage son. He’s constantly busy with him, his work, and basketball. Frankly I don’t think I’ll ever have a relationship/get married. He would have to be a tall, handsome, sensitive guy who owns his own house and understands my autism. I’m pushing 40 and just a few years ago did I finally realize what a marriage truly is. I had a misconception for most of my life: a gorgeous guy to come and rescue me from all my problems. But that’s not it. (Right?)

Rather…I do have feelings for him. And I did back then. But I’m realistic and know/knew nothing long-term will happen.

It’s true. I was speaking hypothetically.

I take it you didn’t see this Batya33? Lol

If I told him I had feelings for him back then, and that I still do, would that make my situation different? And not so concerning?

Sadly, all of my public school years were tough. Music, movies, art, games all helped. And I’m so appreciative. 🌹

Here’s an example: I went through a tough time my sophomore year of high school. Listening to Aerosmith songs made me feel better. Steve Tyler came into my work in 2008. I froze and my stomach jumped when I almost walked into him, lol.

If a Britney Spears song helped you get through your father’s death, you’d want to thank her, right?

lol what? Yes I love looking at beautiful things. Looking at his pictures and thinking/daydreaming about him helped me get through a tough time. So yes, he did help me.

Interesting…people either fully agree that I should tell him & thank him for helping me get through my difficult time, or they think I shouldn’t at all.

He and I were friendly in high school and did interact. We just never did anything outside of school. We’ve been texting daily now for the last few years. So I’d say we know each other well.

Correct; he never knew my grandmother nor has he met my parents.

I was planning to tell him after dinner, when we got the room.

I know him very well. I very highly doubt that will be his reaction. But all right. If he does react with “relative indifference”, what should I say/do?

My friend (I’ll call her Jane) had another class with him. She told me he was talking about me in their class; that’s what he said. He obviously must have been suspecting that I was interested in him. (Which again, obviously, I was.)

Obviously, I’d like for him to react with appreciation and kindness.

I’d say he was flattered; however he also said it in a way that implied he was suspicious.

He was in my science class senior year. I admit, I would gawk at him whenever I got the chance. It was obvious to him I found him attractive because I would smile when I gawked. (Subconsciously I would do it. I didn’t feel myself smiling at all.) I heard that he said to other people, “She smiles at me in class like, ‘Heey, hot stuff.’”

And TinyDance—-you are both wrong. Very wrong. He and I are were both acquaintances in high school; we never hung out outside of school, but we did know each other well. And we have been texting everyday for the last few years.

I couldn’t help but wonder if there was an even deeper way to say it. Lol you’re totally right!!

Er, wait why is that?

Brilliant, thanks!

In high school he was a basketball star, and as I have said, very handsome. Looking at his pictures/thinking about him (i.e., his handsome face) in the newspapers made me feel better. (Obviously, he was pleasing to look at. I love looking at pictures/images/beautiful things.)

My personal story is this: I went through a tough time my senior year of high school; my grandmother passed away and my dad was in the hospital for awhile. (He is retired and doing fine now.) During that tough time, thinking about my guy friend made me feel better. (He is a handsome boy, especially back in high school.) I want to thank him for helping me get through that time. I'm just not exactly sure how to word it. (I did warn him I may get teary-eyed.) As I asked earlier, some examples please? Thank you🥰