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I miss you now and am sure to miss you more in the days to come, but I can't have you in my life after what you did to me. I can't let myself show you how much of a mess I am because of you. I love you.

Thank you for removing your FB relationship status entirely instead of changing it from "single" to "in a relationship". Very considerate of you. You have no idea how much you have hurt me and how much of a mess I am right now because of you. I will not take friendship as a consolation prize. I miss you.

desert in summer sand doesn’t care who you are love blooms from dry ground south for the winter I wish I could let her go girl free as a bird

Sorry, I don't mean to spam, but I have to get this out. I am numb. I tried to eat something just to occupy myself, but it tasted gray. I have no appetite, anyways. You said I was special, you said you cared about me. You said you actually wanted to be with someone who cared about you, for once. What happened? How can you be so indifferent? If you were mad, or upset, or sad, or anything, I could deal with that. But you're totally indifferent. How could you be so indifferent towards something you actually cared about? I can't believe what we had meant so little to you. I miss the desert. We were alone together, and the sunlight was fading, and you leaned over and kissed me. I have never been happier than I was at that moment. How was that only a month ago? Where did we go wrong?

I miss you so much. We may not technically be over yet, but I know it's coming. I know you're with another guy as I write this. I miss your gentle hugs. I miss your smile, your dimples, the way your eyes light up when you are excited. I miss that look that could keep me going for days. You haven't looked at me like that in far too long. I miss your random, quirky messages. I miss your easy laugh. I miss your scent. I miss your soft skin. I miss the way you clutched on to my arm when you walked beside me. I miss you stroking my beard. I miss the meaningful silences. I miss your naturalness. I miss you so much. I don't know how this happened. We were so great in the beginning. I wish you weren't scared of letting someone get close to you. I wish you wouldn't dig for minor differences just for an excuse to distance yourself from me. I wish you would let me love you. It's driving me insane that you are out right now with another guy, that he's the one that gets to listen to your lyrical voice. I am listening to an old voicemail just to hear it. It is like a drug that I know I have to put down, but can't. It's killing me inside knowing that you are out right now, holding another man's hand, clutching his arm, giggling at him like you used to do to me. I shaved my beard because I couldn't keep imagining you running your beautiful little fingers through it anymore. I needed a change. That was three days ago, and you still have no idea that I did it. I wish you would accept that you deserve to be loved. I love you. I miss you.