Well, here is the shortened version of a long 4 year relationship. My boyfriend (30) and I (27) have been together for 4 1/2 years. We have two children together 2 and 3 months. I also have a 7 year old that lives with us. We have broken up many times and he has cheated on me at least once, that I know of. The problem is now we are back together and have been for sometime. He has way more female friends than male friends. He also continues friendships with people that he had a romantic relationship in the past. All these women know about me. He has a pager that they will page him on. I have resorted to horrible measures to keep tabs on him. Such as looking through his pager when he is sleeping, his wallet, the redial on the phone, etc. He does everything for me and our kids, as far as the house and the bills go. We still are very sexually active with each other. I don't know if he is "just" friends with these other females or not. I have even had conversations with them and they denied any romantic relationship with him. There is one girl in particular who pages him all the time, I think they were even seeing each other while we were broken up last year, I know that is when he met her. I am tired of being so jealous.. some people tell me just to be happy that he is home most of the time and paying bills and being there for me and my kids. But my jealousy and sneaky ways get the best of me and I end of going through his stuff or playing on peoples phones. I hate being like that because when I get caught I am humiliated and he is mad. We have broken up and always get back together, he says he can't be with anyone else. But the other day he told me he was not marriage material. He says he loves me but I am unsure what to do.. Help.>>
