Hi, my name is Matt. Ok, so my girlfriend and I have been dating for 2 years. Over the 2 years we broke up a couple times and eventually got back together each time. For the second year however, things just weren't the same and she told me she just didn't feel the way she did when we first started dating, and that she was just doing it now to make me happy. Still, things were fine and we moved on, making progress. She even had sex with me. Just recently, I really messed up. She met this guy with whom she only wanted a friendship, but I got really jealous. I ended up calling her more frequently, and inquiring alot about what they did. Then I did the worst thing. I created a screen name and pretended to be some girl and talked to the guy my girlfriend met. From these conversations, I picked up that he liked her and he thought she liked him. I believed the first part but I thought it was ludicrous that she liked him. So, I continued this charade. Eventually, I worked some things out with myself, and I was no longer jealous about her hanging out with that guy. She needs friends and space away from me and I understood that. I wanted her to be happy so I backed off and let her enjoy her time. Unfortunately, it was too late. I wanted to stop talking to the guy on the fake s/n, but I knew if I just stopped it would have been shady. I wanted to find a way to make it ok that I was on the screenname. I made a phony email address and emailed my real address with a few quotes from the conversation I had with him and told my girlfriend some mysterious girl sent me this. Then, I sent myself another email from the fake address saying I can give you the screenname if you want so you can talk to the guy. She believed me on all of this, but was really suspicious about the mystery person's motives and wanted to find out who it was. I thought this would rid myself of any guilt and would explain my having the screenname. Unfortunately, I forwarded the first email(one with excerpts from a conversation I had with him on the fake s/n) to my girlfriend. She, being intelligent as she is, researched IP's and emails, and enabled the headers on her emails. She noticed that my email IP was the same as the IP of the fake email IP. My lie was exposed and she ended the relationship. I was upset for a few minutes when she said this, but I had been through this several times before and decided it probably was for the better. I thought everything would be ok until I said "I'll be fine, just as long as you don't go liking him." She said she did. Alot. Now she says she isn't very mad about the lie and still wants to be friends with me(we were originally best friends). She also said she won't date this guy for my sake(it would kill me right now) and for her sake(she hasn't been single in about 5 years). I would be completely fine with this situation except he likes her and she likes him....alot. This girl has alot of issues and often likes people alot at first and then it fades, but I'm not sure how this will turn out. I don't know what to do. I want her to be happy(she's my best friend), but her being happy involves being with him, but that doesn't make me happy. So, who should I be looking out for? I told her I wished she'd stop talking to him, and we argued for a while last night. Every time I bring the subject up with her, it gets worse and she is more irritated with me. Last night I ended up going home feeling hollow and emotionless. It was weird because near the end of the night, I spent about 15 minutes laying down with my head onher lap, her playing with my hair, and not talking at all. Just laying there, and it was so peaceful. Then we switched around and she put her head on my lap and we did the same thing. I haven't eaten, I am so stressed out. I love her so much and it's terrible because if she asked me back I would go. I want to be good enough for her, she says it's unnattractive when I get jealous and so are some of the other things I do, like being insecure. I just want her to be happy and me to be happy, but I don't know how it would work. Help...please.
