I'd been with my boyfriend Steve for 3 years this June. We'd lived together for almost 3 years and had been engaged for 2 years. But in July I broke it off with him for many reason which included; I wasn't sure I loved him in the right way (I thought it may of been a best friend thing), we both needed to move on with our lives and go to UNI and stuff, I wanted to see other people. He didn't want to break up, he said he'll always love me. So, he went back to where he used to live (10 hours away) for a few weeks to sort things out to move back up there. When he came back he had enrolled on a UNI course up there, which started in a week from he came back (the UNI course starts tomorrow). I didn't expect it to happen so soon, but he was moving back up there. We said to each other that it wouldn't be the end and we don't know what would happen in the future. During the month we'd been split up (although we still lived together) I met someone on the net and I thought I loved him, and he is madly in love with me. Now I'm not so sure. My EX boyfriend Steve (the one that just left) left yesterday evening and I can't stop crying, I'm hysticial. I feel like someone has died and I feel so alone. I think now I've realised that he really is the one I want, but now what? He's gone. He can't come back and I've just got myself a job here. I don't know what to do, but all I know is I've got to be with him. And the other problem is this person I met on the net is completely in love with me and I don't want to break his heart (I love him too, I think
I've took the day off work today because I'm such a mess. I feel like I can't carry on without Steve. I keep hoping that when we speak later, that by some miracle he'll say he'll come back.
Oh what have I done!?
