OK I met A after I broke up with my bf of 2 years.Call it rebound or whatever it is but after being with him for a few weeks I realized I might actually be in love with him.The problem then was that he had a gf in another country,he's from another country but is working here.We were seeing each other for almost 2 months until he disappeared,didn't call,write or reply any of my calls and messages.Until 2 weeks ago I saw him at a club and called him after and we talked and hooked up again.He told me he has broken up with his gf of 4 years because they were always fighting and she found out abt me.I never asked him why he closed contact with me but I figured it didn't really matter,as long as we were together now.Everything went on quite smoothly,we hung out and he had been so sweet and affectionate.Life was a bliss.Then 5 days ago a gossip magazine took pictures of me and him having dinner and made a big deal about it.His manager ( he is an actor/singer ) was quite nervous abt the situation and wanted him to be more cautious.So,they decided it was best if I didn't go to his hotel and we didn't go out in public anymore.It's been 5 days and even though he told me to give it awhile and things would be back to normal but I miss him so.He came to my apt to visit me for 1 hour and tht was it.Even though we have an intimate relationship,he always jokingly reminds me that we're just friends which hurts alot,he doesn't act that way of a friend,it's not just abt sex,we enjoy each other's company,joke,talk and really have a superb time together.I know he'll be going back to his country maybe in a week or so but I want something more,I did write him abt how I feel but he ignores it and talks abt other things.Should I just tell him that I would rather be nothing than be "just friends" with him?The 3 months that he shut me out of his life was hell and I've recovered but then he comes back into my life and I feel confused and depressed again.I don't know why I am doing this to myself but I truly love this man.
