Hi everyone, I'm finally making my first post after many hours spent at the site. I kept putting this off because I didn't want to have to do this, but it's time. Basically I really need some help in making some crucial decisions, and secondly just need someone to talk to. I am 20 years old and have had a very "normal" childhood and relationship history. My Girlfriend and I have been together for over three years. Right from the beginning we have had our share of good and bad times like any other couple, but a lot of the time I have spent struggling to figure out whether she is the one or not. We fight nonstop, and have for the majority of the relationship. We do certianly love eachother without a doubt, but we seem to have a problem with always trying to be the "leader". Sometimes it seems like we fight just to fight, and it has certainly taken its toll on our relationship. I can't even count the number of times where I have told her that we're breaking up just to get even with her for something like hanging up on me or something of that nature. We are both what I would call pretty mature for our ages, but our relationship at times seems like a high school saga. I guess to cut to the point here, I really need to decide how to either fix our relationship or to get it over with. Neither of us really want to break up, but things just can't go on like this forever. I actually purchased a ring a couple months ago and was going to ask her on February fourth, buit while planning the evening I got in a fight with her mother on the phone and started swearing out of frustration. Anyways when I went over after a couple days to talk about it with them, her dad chimed in and basically kicked me out of their house. My girlfriend became distraught and hysterical and of course they blamed it on me and made me seem like I was evil for "causing" their daughter heartache. Since then things have been rough because I don't feel the same about her family anymore and she knows it. They say they have forgiven me and moved on, but its not the same now. I get so confused because one day I am planning on how I am going to pop the question and the next day I'm telling her that I can't stand her and that she needs to leave my house and leave me alone. Please don't write this off as some kid who needs to get a life, because that's not it. We are both responsible, intelligent individuals and our relationship is and always has been a very serious and meaningful one. I'm just torn between finding a way to make it better or cutting my losses and trying to find someone else. I'll stop here for now and see what kind of responses I get and go from there. I llok forward to being an active member here, and I so appreciate all of the people here who are willing to listen and respond to thers posts. I certainly feel like I have much more to say, and that I feel I've only scratched the surface with this post, but I feel great that I finally started getting some of it out in words. Sorry for the rambling and repeating as well.