I am in a serious relationship with a guy who is 36.
He is an Cancer/Dragon and I am an Aquarius/Fire Rabbit. He keeps me stable, he owns his own home, has a well paid job, and treats me like a princess.....
I am in love with one of my best friends. He is a Libra/Boar and he is passionate, he makes me feel like I am floating on air. We have liked each other since we first met, but I had just started my relationship with my boyfriend then.
We made out on our friends sofa on New Years Eve, way into New Years Day. It was the most sensual and sexual experience of my life. I have never wanted to be with someone so much. I can't stop thinking about him. Everything points to us being soulmates....but he is going to live in Japan in October.
I love my boyfriend very much, I really do but I am not happy in the relationship. I have tried to make it work but cannot leave due to the fact I will not have a home. I am unable to work due to mental health problems. I am stuck. I can't pursue my friend because of my boyfriend, but even if i could, he would be in Japan in October...I could always save up...but even then....¬_¬
I just don't know what to do. I don't feel guilty for loving my friend, I don't see why I should be guilty for loving someone.
I just don't want to hurt my boyfriend or end up homeless and in a worse mental state.....