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I was talking to her this morning and she said she would give me a second chance.. along with she kissed some guy last night.. Do i stay, but lay low in her life*as in make no effort, let her make the effort to talk to me*.. or be apart of her life.

I try,, but i get suck an erge to still wanna call her.. even for the littlest thing.

I have been registered on these forums for a few weeks now, but i have never taken the time to tell my story.. here it is.. My ex-gf and I have been broken up for about 8 months offically. We had first broken up because she didnt know if she wanted to be with me. We were together for about 1.4 months. So she breaks up with me etc, while we were broken up, she ends up being with a guy that worked at my job. I broke all the rules during the break up.. i could not do the NC thing. she was being with him without me knowing *they had sex*.. but then i found out.. but took her back, but did not make her my gf. We were being with each other w/out the title for 6 months. i told her i did not want a gf, but really i did, to get back at her for doing me so dirty. but 1 day, she tells me that she's done, and she doesnt know if she could do it anymore.. i asked her to be my gf, which made things worse. we were still kinda being together even still. but then 1 day she totally ended it with me, saying she wasnt in love with me anymore etc.. I was crushed so badly, she says she was not in love with me, and she couldnt do it anymore.. I cryed my eyes out. The guy that used to work with, came back into her life. she's head over heels for him, but she only tells me that she's his "friend", which i know isnt true.were still friends, we talk every few days, i see her. but its friends only. but i still want her back. Everytime i try and hang out with her, she says i dunno, but when that guy asks her, she always says yes. I went on her myspace and see some very bad things, that made me upset *they were between her and my x coworker* here are my questions 1. Should i totally just not be in contact with her and forget it, and move on with my life. Or should i stick around and be her friend. I'm 50/50 on both, b/c when i ask her about things, she lies, when i know the truth, but i still wanna be with her, b/c i am still in love with her but she's not in love with me anymore. Can people fall back inlove with that person? What kinda NC could i do. I have no car and sometimes i need a ride to work, and she's the only person i could call. I like her giving me rides b/c its the only time i really get to see her.