I know it's hard, I just broke up with my boyfriend who I was with for 2 1/2 yrs and we lived together for 2 yrs, I know exactly what youa re going through! We just broke up 7 days ago. This is the most pain I have ever felt in my life, it is ripping me apart inside. Like you I don't have many friends to go to, I really have none since I gave them all up for him, now I am pretty much all alone. My ex said the exact same thing and I told him to be reduced to a "friend" after all this time was too painful for me and he said we had to let go slowly, I told him no way, it's all or nothing! He calls me and of course I talk to him and when we hang up I sob like a child. This is torture for my heart, I cry in order to be able to sleep, this is torture for me. I am trying to get out there and renew myself but I can't even find the strength to get up off the couch. I think I am going to change my numbers and I am in the middle of finding a new apartment, I need him to leave me alone in order to heal, I will be in agony during this process but I am sorry I can't put myself on the shelf for him to find someone else and there I am all alone. Ladies can we be strong and realize that we do not have to sacrifice for men, it is a two lane highway! Although I adore my ex and would love to be with him again, I know the reality of it and must scrape myself and begin again because I love myself too much to torture myself like this. When I come home my house is dark and empty and I can't even look at the bedroom because I am so lonely but I know in time I will eventually be loved and love again. Please let hope and love live in you again, it is hard but don't you love yourself? I have discovered that I love myself -again-. Thanks for listening to me.
