Okay I thought I could handle this on my own like I have done with so many things before, but this is so different. Okay here's the story. I have been married for three years to a man that I thought would never hurt me like everyone has before. He is in the Army and in Jan 2004 he had to go to Iraq. I knew it would be hard but I knew as long as I showed him how much I loved him he wouldn't have to worry about me cheating. I guess I was the one than should have been worring. Well we had created my space accounts when he got back just to keep in touch with people we knew. One night I looked on his profile to see his friends list which was the beginning of a big mistake on my part. There were girls I didn't know. So I got into his account to see who they were and they were just random girls. So being cheated on so many times by exs I got worried so I checked his email that he created in Iraq that I didn't find out about it until he got back. Well there were emails from many different women that he had been emailing. He wanted pictures of many of them and in one the subject was "love of my life" he said he was sorry for not calling and then even closed it with love. So then I checked his buddy list and there were like 50+ women that he chatted to. He said he talked me everytime he got a chance and it wasn't that often. I don't know what to do. He has numerous online dating accounts that he created in Iraq and he is seaching for single women online all the time. I thought it was just when things were going bad but we had a great weekend and this morning I find out he was searching again. The whole time he was over there I stayed with my parents I remained faithful and still have. I could never do this to him. The whole time he was over there he would tell me how much he love and missed me and couldn't wait to be with me again. I hate not being able to trust him. He says he has stoppped but after this morning I know it isn't true. I am not perfect in anyway and I feel like it is my fault because I have changed. When I confronted him with all of this he got made cause I got into his account and then when I wanted to know why he said he didn't remember. I love him more than life itself and I don't know what to do. We just had our second child and I don't want the way I feel to effect them but I don't know what to do. Someone please help I have been holding this all in for months and I have no one to talk to.
