I find myself faced with the most dificult decision of my life. I got myself into this mess and I don't know how to get out. I hope this post doesn't end up too long to read because there is a lot of background to my story. Well I guess I'll get started.
I have grown up in a strict Christian home. 5 months ago I met a guy on myspace, hung out a few times, fell in love, and have been dating him ever sinse. My family completely dissaproved of him, which forced me to move out of my parents house, and into Jake(my boyfriend)'s cousins house. His cousin Max had been very attached to me from the beginning, and was happy to let me live in his house. Jake and Max worked at the same store, so when one was home the other one would be working. I spent a lot of time with Max while Jake was working, and started finding things out about Jake that I didn't know. He was lying to me, stealing from the store, doing drugs, all kinds of things that freaked me out. Jake didn't treat me bad (besides the lies) but Max always treated me better. He made me feel special, like I deserved better. One night when Jake was working Max asked me to go to a club with him, just to get out and have some fun without Jake for once. I got all dressed up and we went out bar hopping. He bought me several drinks, and I kept drinking them, got drunker than I ever had been. On the way home, we stopped in front of the river to enjoy the view. He kissed me. We made out for quite a while and he eventually stopped it before it went to far, not wanting to take advantage of me while I was drunk. A few days later, we slept together. I was completely sober. A little after that I moved out of there and into my own place. I started finding out that Max was the one full of lies, and Jake had done nothing wrong. Now I love Jake more than I can explain, and the fact that I slept with his cousin continually haunts me. People used to tell him to watch out for us two and he would always say he knew I would never do that to him. Then he would tell me he knows I never would, but if I did he would never speak to me again. It is the one thing he would never be able to get over. I told a mutual friend of all of ours about Max's lying, which got back to him and made him mad. He decided to go and tell Jake that I cheated on him, only he didn't say how. After the fact, he regretted doing that cause he knew what would happen, so he covered the story with something a little easier to handle. He told him that I got drunk and kissed some random guy, then told him to take me home before it went farther. A few nights later, he calls me (when he knows Jake is at work) and asks if I want to sleep with him again. I said no. Then he tells me he has all of our AOL conversations saved, and there is proof in them that we did sleep together. He is threatening to show Jake, who would not be able to handle it. I love Jake with all my heart and don't want to risk loosing him. But the only way Max promises to get rid of the proof, is if I sleep with him one more time. So, do I do the very thing I am trying to hide all over again in order to be sure it will never be found out? It seems so backwards, yet its the only way.....What do I do?
