I have been married for almost 5 years. When I married my husband, I knew that I was not in love with him. I sold into the myth that there are few good black men in the world and since I had found one I had better keep him. I am miserable. I have done everything to try to make myself happy. The problem is last month I finally told my husband that I am not in love with him and I desire to leave. At first he was angry and told me that I had wasted five years of his life. Now he is very pitiful and I feel he is playing on my sympathy. My friends are all telling me that I made a committment and that I should abide by that especially since my husband has done nothing wrong. I want to be happy again but how can I be happy if I am making someone else miserable. We have one child that we adopted together. I have agreed to any custody arrangement that will make him happy.
How can I reclaim my own happiness? I feel as if I am trapped. My husband seems to not care whether or not I am happy as long as I am here.
