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Thanx for the reply. I agree - i've been somewhat neglectful of her feelings in the past - but ive changed and ive told her ive changed and she doesnt believe me - and now turns everything into some sort of issue - but actually recenly she's been pretty nonchalant about things - shell still get a bit angry about things but doesnt seem to be bothered much - she used to call and ask questions constantly - now she wont call or anything - i just moved into a studio above three single girls (something that wouldve bothered her like crazy in the past) and she doesnt seem to care much - except she made a sarcastic remark to me referring to my downstairs neighbors as "your little girlfriends" - although the only time she saw me interacting with them was at a party - and i did nothing but talking to them - i even introduced her to them. She wont let go of the past - really resents me - yet she claims to still be in love with me and wants the relationship to eventually resume after some time - does it seem like she just wants to ease away from this relationship? does it seem she may have found someone else (i should also note that she herself has given me reasons to feel insecure)? would it be wise to just leave and take what ive learned and apply it to a fututre relationship? Or should i expect that her feeling towards me will change? I want a monogamous relationship with her and ive really changed my ways, but it seems like she just cant feel secure with me - and it doesnt seem like shes really into any real interaction with me.

About a week ago the girl ive been going out with for about 5 years decided we she go on a temporary break. The reasons: Well i guess she had issues with the way I interacted with other females, the way they interacted with me and that i know a lot of them. At the beginning of the relationship my girl got very close very fast. I was a bit hesitant and just got out of a 4 year relationship - but i needed a place to live temporarily and despite the fact that i just met this new girl - she offered me stay at her apt and i took advantage of the opportunity - i found her attractive and it just seemed ok. But i didnt meet up to her standards. Im a social butterfly and it was hard for her to handle. She accused me of flirting and lying constantly - and at times would even threaten to committ suicide because of the "heart ache" i caused her. There were things about her that were hard for me to handle as well - the fact that she's very attractive and attracts a lot of guys - and the fact that she was doing these soft core films. But i tolerated it - but eventually she just couldnt handle me and now decides we should have a temp break up. At first i was like cool - well atleast we'll be like friends, but she doesnt even call me and acts sort of standoffish in public - unless she sees me talking to women - then its the past all over again. She says she's still in ove with me and that the break is only temp but it doesnt seem like it. Everytime she talks to me she starts yelling at me about all the "flirting" and all the women i know and how its hard for her - but she feels the "temporary" space will help her to trust me better. She's an actress and she also claims she needs space from me to work on her career and is even considering living in cali for awhile (she wants me to wait for her for a year while shes away in california). I think its just her way of easing away from the relationship and even though she swears nothing is going on with anybody else - i have reason to suspect otherwise. Early in the relationship i was the one who wanted some distance or a temp break - and now im sort of depressed about this request of her's. Its been 5 years and she was even pregnant with my child once - she miscarried - so ive developed a real attachment to her. I wonder if i should believe her when she says its a temp break up, should i just break it off for good and tell her about it (or not) - should i start dating one of the many local women that want to date me (the prob is im more attracted to my temp exgril). I thought id be able to handle this better but its a bit hard...