To
Annie, Maggie, Joyce, Christin and friends
I have good reasons not to kill myself...
1. kill myself will hurt my love ones.
2. my emenies will be happy and laugh.
3. I have two lovely children and a wife.
4. my new lakeview house is under construction.
5. after 6 months of waiting, my new S550 will be here tomorrow.
6. everybody thinks my life is perfect..
Sound like good reasons to not kill myself?
I've married for 9 years, my wife can't find a reason to leave me... I work hard, make a lot of money, two wonderful kids, nice house and I never cheated her..
I've been working 18 hours a day and 365 a year for the last 9 years. Can't remember when was the last vacation, forgot my own birthday. have sex once a year just because we want to have baby. My wife doesn't love me anymore... We just stay together, so our kids have parents... I buy her roses , she smiled and never look at them again. I feel lonely and she doesn't understand me at all... I have no other family member... my kids are too young to remember me, it's better for me to leave now.... hope my wife will find them a good father with the money.
I worked so hard and tried to build a perfect family.... but I am destroying it in the process... It's my fault...
I met a married woman a year ago, she loved me and understand me...I did not know. We were business partner for 11 months. Two weeks after we finished the project. I realized that she's the one I love... but it's too late.. she went back to her looser husband with money in the bank and a broken heart.
Money can't buy happiness... trust me..my life was a million times happier when I was poor... simple life is a good life....
life becomes too complicated when you tried to make it perfect. I want everything looks perfect... I will make my suicide looks like an accident so friends won't try to figure out why. I don't want to go to heaven because it's too perfect for me... hell is better place to be...
good bye...
