well everything has been going downhill, my girl friend of 2.5 years has been leaving almost everyday with some new friends of hers, in that group of friends is a guy that admited he likes her and she told me that she has feelings for him. she SWEARS on her life that she has never done anything with him, but she has admited that they held hands once when they went out with the group of friends. i get the biggest feeling ever that she is cheating on me, i mean she isnt anything to brag over and i could do alot better but its just i love her so much. shes saying that she wants to mvoe out to her friends house, where the guy is living, just because she wants to think about her future she says it has nothing to do with me but i know it does. i dont know what to do, im being the nicest person in the world, like for example today it was 110, and i didnt have a car today, she said she was hungry so i walked almost 3 miles in sandles to get her some food. by the time i got home i couldnt even take another step because i got so many blisters on my feet. she shaves her legs, and other areas when she goes out, and says she does it just because shes bored. she says shes not in love with me but if she leaves for a little while she will be, i dont know what to do. ive honestly been considering suicide, my lifes so messed up right now. and to top it all off my moms brain tumor is growing back and this time theres a big chance she wont survive it, im an only child with a dead father and a girlfriend that wants to leave me. after my mom dies and my gf leaves me i have nobody in the world, this is why ive also just been considering it. i dont know what to do.
