My 12 year old son was involved in a freak accident back in march of this year. he had mulitple broken bones and damage to his internal organs. I have been divorced from his mother since dec of 99. and only got to see either one of my children on a limited basis summers and some vacations ; as we lived 1700 miles apart from each other. in april after doing better he fell and redamaged his liver , before the damage could be repaired my son died. I flew back and forth during the month period. I lost my Job but My son was more important than any 1 job. I during this period went into a deep depression, causing the breakup of a relationship that i was in. Yhe person i was involved with was younger than myself and well showed the lack of common sense. and Maturity during this time . So i ended the relationship as to seek the proper help i needed. I turned to a group of people an online pool league ( go figure ), It took the consideration of one fine Lady to put me on a track that has been so very helpful and has once again helped me Grieve in my own way but at the time i am still feeling so Sad at the loss of one precious little boy who was my world , even though we went not phyiscally close we spoke everyday and well played a lot of pool online. This empty feeling is so horrible at times i want to just burst and well i cry every day still for my son this empty feeling dosnt seem to go away ...... through out it all i have been able to maka a few good friends and even though i have never met these people thay have become a Special part of my life Thank you Jess u Know who u are and all of My Longshot family. I honestly dont know what i would have done , with out this fine group of people in my life I am Still depredded and Unemployed but My attitude is getting better with each Passing Day. The emptiness i feel wont go away in any time soon people told me to do something to help someone and i might feel better , I have and will continue but the HOLLOW empty Feelings Just dont seem to Go Away.
