carefreebear_so

Yes, unfortunately I madly in love. I know it was only that one time, but it's like that image I had in her is gone. I mean, you treat that person good, you're nice, and well you expect the same from them. I'm guessing any guy would have left her already, would not have put up with it. But yea, I have though about couple couseling, planning to talk to her about it.

Hey, all Okay, so it's been 3 years relation so far and though I do still love her, part of me wants me to just leave her and get all my stuff. At the beginning I didn't feel this way, she was just everything I look for, sweet, outgoing, understable, lister, curious. Now I dunno, this image is gone ever since last year when it happened. Basically last year, one time she came so drunk, I mean overly drunk, and got all trashy, well I thought it's normal to people to at times get that way, thought I never do, but oh well. And then the unexpected, I got screamed and then punched multiple times, then one came right in my eyes, which got black the next day. , totally shocked and sad afterwards. I was thinking "damn what did I do to deserve, what", I was thinking that maybe I must be a failure, a loser. She did apologize the next day, well I wanna to leave right there and get all my things, but since she beg me not to, that it wasn't gonna happened again, that she was drunk, and well since I so madly in love (she's my first g/f anyways, the only serious relation I had), I just thought ok, I'll give her one more chance. One year later noe, I still can't get over it and at times I'm even disgusted by her. Like at first, I was okay by it, I thought that well it was just a stupid mistake, but now I dunno, it's like it's really starting to kick in and now I'm still feeling like getting all my stuff and leaving. Yet at the same time I don't want to, I love her. Ok, help, what do I do? Leave now, but I'm a love!!!!!!!!

U know, it affects you when the SO hits you, you can never get over it. Mines did, thought it just once when she got drunk, till this day I can't get over it, I don't see her the same way and no I didn'r responded back but it has affected, which I'm about to make a post on this.