jkall

thankyou for your responses i know in my own mind i am being abused mentaly but i just dont have the strenghth to go so many things hold me firstly i have been with this man for 18 years i have a very unstable background myself i have gone thorugh so much before he came along and i am scared of being alone and coping i know also there are many help and support groups but i am unsure how to aproach them even with the support of my cpn i am still frightend not of the physical i have had that before but just of trying to start again i have very little confidence in my self or belife but thankyou for answering

help this is quite long --------- hi im new here so please forgive me if i am in the wrong place am under the care of our local mental health services because of depression which goes from being quite mild to quite scary i also have to cope with a partner who is quite difficult also my son suffers from asd at the moment i am coping with a lot and its really affecting me my cpn thinks my partner may be suffering from a personality disorder because of the way he behaves towards authority figures she has been at my house and experianced him having one of these episodes and at our consaltation yesterday sudjested i look up personality disorders this is a exaple of what can happen i recived a phone call on monday 9th jan from our sons school it is a special needs school sudjesting a contract of behaviour and that a meting to discuss this was aranged the next day through the post a contract signed by our son and his teacher arrived to which my partner went balistic i agree the school were in the wrong and we should have been consulted but he went way over the top in his reaction he phoned the school and just went into a triad of aggression towards the staff he wasnt abusive but very forcfull when he eventualy got a call back the teacher found the situation amusing which only fulled his rage to end was our son didnt go to school on the next few days to cap it all on the friday morning my partner still feeling beligerant was going on about how disgusting the staff at the school were in front of our son he actualy said to our son not to abide by the contract of behaviour and that if the staff picked on him he was to go to the head teacher at 9 15 we recived a phone call to say our son had walked in to class and told the staff his dad had told him not to do any thing the teachers told him so they wernt prepared to have him at the school they requested we take him home as we have no transport they brought him home to which my partner started going on about kidnapping and how they arnt alllowed to take a child of the school premisis without our permission this is not a isolated incident everytime he gets a lettrer or someone speaks to him in the wrong tone its as if he becomes some one else but if you met him he is mr charming its self i dont no what to do as a result of this he was about three or four years ago actualy seeing someone to help him but the support from that quater is no longer availible this has made me very unsure about things now and i am at the point where i panic if i think i have done something wrong i hide letters that i think may annoy him when i am shoping i am scared that i will buy the wrong things and i am beginning to hate myself for being like this i constantly think of leaving but am to scared to try please can you give me some advice