Mr Right

I am now an old man. I grew up painfully shy, I couldn't ask questions in school. I never stood up for myself, I never asked girls out on dates. When it's that serious, something should be done. My parents did nothing, I did nothing, just rotted in my bedroom. You are here where you are reaching out, that's a great first step. Just don't end up like me. I am not really shy anymore, but I certainly do not have an outgoing life at 40. Few friends, no girlfriend. I go out, but I've no one to share this with. I travel alone. I live alone. I just wish something had been done when I was young. You are going in the right direction to do something about it.

In the past 4 years, I have attended 6 different speed dating events. I estimate I have met 80 women, and of those I chose about 30 women. I have never made one match, that is, not one of those 30 women I chose, chose me to make a match. Now, the organizers never tell you if someone else chose me, whom I didn't chose, only if a match is made. I am a total failure at this. ](*,) Is it my body language? Is it that I'm not attractive? Is it my personality? Am I boring? Am I unlucky? Is it a combination? I mostly know the answer - My unattractiveness (uglyness) cannot be made up with conversation skills. All the women seem interested and we keep up a good conversation. I have met doctors, engineers, teachers, accountants, lots of professionals. I am a professional. But it's almost as if my only function at these events is to make the other men look good. I don't know if I'll return, it's depressing and I don't think I can fake optimism a 7th time.