Haha, good one.
From what I've seen on this forum, I believe I might be a tad bit older than most of you. I'm light years away from high school. In any case, I realize that my problem really has more to do with myself than anything else. For me, I think there's a link between getting dates, my personal/social life, and my career. Self-esteem doesn't make up for my dysfunctionality and shortcomings.
I don't know what field you guys are in but I was previously an electrical engineer in lithography. I'm no longer an EE but the VPs ( and some of my immediate supervisors ) at my company were mostly liberal arts majors in college who knew how to make friends and get dates. These VPs were the same college students who were probably out playing frisbees while the 'nerds' like me had to stay indoors and keep working for that dream gpa to land a decent job or grad school. In my exp, the 'nerds' were the employees, not the bosses. From then on, I finally understood why my grade school teachers emphasized class participation and why I kept being teased and bullied for being the 'quiet' one.
While working at this company, all my co-workers routinely ignored me and my only socializing events were with my supervisors, to whom I was supposed to report my work to. Almost every day, I could hear my peers passing by and talking about their spouse, kids, cars, cell phones, or basketball, none of which were relevant to me. I never ate at the company's cafeteria and I was never invited to office parties. I was like a disembodied form of man who promptly came to work by 8 and left exactly at 6 in the evening, where my entire time was literally spent in front of my computer and lab space. I had perfect attendance but I don't think anyone would have known or cared if I died one day and didn't show up for work.
As for the work I was doing, I didn't mind doing it but this wasn't my idea of being an engineer. I also didn't fit in with the company and I wasn't going to get anywhere like this. I was also sick of technology and wanted to try out something radically different.
I then entered dental school, which was the weirdest thing ever. I am in my 3rd yr ( $225k in debt so far and still counting ) as we speak and I feel like I'm running around in circles again. Like in my past life, I have nothing in common and nothing to talk about with my classmates. Most faculty and students are so close to each other as to having each other's phone numbers. People don't understand why I'm always doing my labwork alone and why I appear so "quiet, neurotic, obnoxious, stuck up, and unapproachable." An oral surgeon once told me that he had never seen my kind before and said I'll never make it if I don't act like a 'man.'
Not all was lost, as I had some geriatric patients say that they like me because I seem to be "thorough, nice, and honest" and that is what they want in a dentist.
But then again, kids are afraid of me. Adolescents and adults seem indifferent about me. And my modest feelings were crushed when recently a 35 yr old male patient told me that he wished had a female dental student treating him. During an operative procedure, he kept turning his head around whenever a good looking female dental student was in vicinity. This dealt a big blow to me and I ended up feeling depressed up until yesterday.
I didn't realize that I typed so much. Anyways, do you think my career, social, and school lives are a reflection of why I can't get dates? Are there anyone here in similar shoes? Any feedback?