everything i do is not good enough or right can anyone give me advise or am i just nutz. me and my boyfriend have been together for a year now and we live together at night he has a hard time sleeping as i do too i like to watch tv at night to make me tired and he like to listen to the raido and most of the time i will turn off the tv so he can get to sleep.
he works i dont but there is once in awhile i leave it on alittle longer at times when i do he ask me to turn it off or go out in the living room so i turn it off and most of the time just lay there beside him and still somehow keep him awake or if i go out in the other room when i come back in i wake him so no matter what i do he gets pissed if i stay in the bedroom or leave the bedroom i never relly know what to do what ever i do i am sure it will be wrong to him..
well as my story go just the other night he hurt his back relly bad and was very tired and in a lot of pain i told him i wasent tired and i had taped a show and so i grap the vcr tape and went out and watch it and then come back in before i left i ask him if i could rub his back or get him anything or do anything for him and he said no and once again i thought i was doing the right thing by leaving the room and going out to the other room so he could get some rest but when i came back in he was not sleeping and i ask him once again if i could do anything for him and he said no it does not matter i am not important to you you rather watch surivor then be in here with me i told him he gets made a me for staying and for leaving i never know what to do
then we argure and i started to cry so hard and he said he ask me to lay down with him and i am sorry but i did not hear him come right out and say i would relly like for you to lay here with me all i heard was my back relly hurts and i am tired and oh yea he did say something about cant i watch that tomor but that is not saying he would relly like me to lay there with him is it?
so like i said i thought i was doing the right thing by leaving and watching tv in the other room and when i come back in the bedroom i get hell and he tells me i dont love him i do love this guy more then anything and he make me very happy but he tells me all the time i dont love him or he does not make me happy and it is the furthest from the truth because he does make me feel good about myself and makes me happy
i make him coffee i put his cloths out in the moring and at night after he get home from work i start his van up in the moring and clean it off take his stuff out to the van he needs try to have dinner ready when he gets home but somtimes i never know what to cook and sometimes we go out to eat and of course do the everday things that a women does at home i hold his hand all that i can and touch him all that i can i do alot for him does that sound like i dont love him i would do anything for this man but know matter what i do and think it is right and showing him that i love him it kicks me in the **** but dont get me wrong he does a lot more for me i mean i dont pay nothing for anything he help me out on my bills he is great. so anybody can you help me out and tell me what is going on
