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I am aware I am responsible of my actions. That is why I am trying to avoid it.

Yes I know. I don't usually trash talk about anybody. I do not know why I did it and I regret it, a lot. I won't drink until I am over her.

What does this mean?

Nope, I don't have a problem with drinking. I usually don't drink much(just a couple of beers) but yesterday I went with an old friend and I drank too much. While drunk I find it difficult to keep my mouth shut

She(30) broke up with me a couple of months. The thing is lately everytime I vent with friends, I tend to trash talk about her, well our relationship. I say things that I dont want to tell about her(I am going to stop drinking). Everytime I vent I realize of all the wrong things in our relationship. But even so I love her, I do not want to hurt her. So why everytime I have the chance I trash talk of her? * By trash talk of her I mean telling the bad things she did in our relationship

Yes I am trying to do that. Damn the reminders from the phone, flower shops... hit me hard. I am trying to improve myself. Trying to go to the gym(faling a bit here), working with my therapist to work on myself and help me with my family issues. I have actually improve my income. I was looking for a flat, so that I could have my own space and share it with my ex. I think maybe she felt pressured because of that, I do not know. But yeah, I need to fix my *** first. I know what you mean

My(30M) ex(30) broke up with me about a month ago. Our relationship was not perfect(one sided, moral issues, emotional dependency by me...) but it felt good. I really loved her, but I did not felt love. The first weeks has been hell. Then the angry phase start, I start seeing all the red flags I ignored, the lack of respect for my feelings... But yesterday I decided to delete pictures. I don't like taking pictures of myself so I don't have many of me alone. I want to start meeting new people(not for a serious relationship though, just friends or something not serious) so I want to have some pictures I can use as profile pics. But, if I have few pictures of myself...I have thousands of her and I together. I start deleting one by one to sort out those where I am alone. Our last trips, our dates, her ***ing beautiful smile. Damn I thought I hate her but I miss her so much. I have start crying again. Lost all motivation. I want to get under someone to forget her, but I do not feel good with that. Somehow I feel like I am cheating. What if she learns about it and it cause her pain? I thought this was getting better but today I feel like the first day. Any tips? How long does this usually take? It was my first serious relationship(3 years) and my first real heartbreak

Well the worst case scenario came true. She told me she has been having doubts for some time(a couple of months). She asked me for a break. I was devastated. I got angry at things she told me("I do not want to lose you") but I kept my cold. I tried to limit the break but I realize it was meaningless. She wanted to break up but was not brave enough. I agrree to the break although I know is not good for me. I am devasted. I am broken. I am angry

Posted last week. Being together for three years, live separated. Overall we were good although we have some incidentes. Last days thr text have been extracold like if I was a friend. Yesterday I ask her how she was feeling. She told me a bit overwhelmed. I told her I would call her but she told me she prefer to meet today and talk a bit. So now, I have not sleep at all. I will meet her at 1900 and the waiting is killing me. What should I expect?how can I get ready? I know I will get nervouse and say whatever I feel will keep us together. But I do not want that

Well. I have been sick all weekend, and I could not attend a family lunch of hers. Since then, I have not seen her. I am a bit mad, she has not come to visit me. It has been two days of cold treatment. Yesterday she did not reply to an love message. Today I went a bit cold(not mature) but I am a bit tired. Before I could ask her to meet, she let me know she had plans today and we could not meet. All text have beeing meaningless. Last hour, how she was feeling. She told me she was a bit overwhelmed(did not specify with what). I ask her if I could call her and she told me: " I prefer to meet tomorrow, and we speak a bit". So I guess I am not gonna sleep today. I know what is coming. I feel it and I have the guts. But ***, is this how it ends? In a couple of weeks everthing seems to go wrong. I need a friend to cry with. But I ran out almost of friend because I focused on her.

The biggest problem I have is leaving my mom and sisters alone(for my sister mental health) My mother is obesse and not fit. It makes me a bit angry. She works a couple hours per day as a caregiver but she is no fit for physical jobs. My idea in the future was she downsizing, and if my father keeps sending money it will be okay. She wont receive any retirement money, maybe some state help and I cannot afford to send her money. I will try to focus on my self and trying to move out. I have few little experience with relationships, this is my first serious one. And I do feel like sometimes I am acting like a teenager in love and allowing things I shoukd not

Yes I do. Is part of the main problem I am tryng to solve with my therapist. I put everyone needs before mine.

I know I have to work my issue, and that is a valid reason for my gf(or any partner) to want me to. I do not blame women for this. I admit that I wish to live with my gf to have an excuse to escape. I start therapy because I want to become a better person. And because I know I have to take care of me and also for my partner. Even if I break up with her I wil keep working on it. I am mad at my gf for many reasons but I do not blame her for nothing. Well, I do resent her way of dealing with the ashole guy.

I am trying. I planned to work in another country before starting with my gf. I talk with my dad, he would keeps sending money. But he is old and he is not rich. I am trying to distance my self myself at home. Be more independent and my mother has noticed me. But I do not know if it would works

I do have a sister. To explain briefly my family situation. My mother was a housewife, my father divorce her around 15-20 years ago. My father gave money for my sister and I. Now he is still pass a considerable amount although he does not have to. My mother works a couple of hours, in this time she has not find a real job. She is 60 now, depressed and is scared that if I leave my father stop sending money(basically that is). I tried moving out last year and when I proposed the idea she was mad at me(big fight). My father, does not want me to move in order that I save up money...and in order to look for my older she sister. She had a psychotic crisis years ago and she has not being the real her since. She is studying something similar to my gf,6 years and has not make real progress. To be honest, my future scares me. I am going to therapy, and my therapist basically told me I am the father of my parents and sister. Best option to move out, but is not as easy as it seems(at least for me)